Heal Our Nation (A Prayer) 9-13-08

Oh Lord God what great promise you have laid upon the heads of this people. Yet we have squandered it away with dissipation. Our rulers are all whores and wizards. There is no substance within them except hocus pocus and naked revelry. The nations mock us for we have become arrogant in our sins like them. Where is there God and why should we fear them. How great a calling it is to be set apart as your people and to be your testimony in this world. Lord our hearts have failed us and we have lost our way. Still Lord you are proven true and faithful. Your long suffering and tender mercies have not failed us. We have failed you. Look at what we publish and what rhetoric we dispense. We have become a stupid people. We need you Lord. Who else has the power and the love to save us from our wickedness. We have passed through your punishment and still we did not turn our faces completely towards you. Now we are turning away again. Soberness and wisdom are strangers among this people. Still Lord there is a small remnant who love your ways. Rent their hearts that they too will pray that you heal our land. Flood us with the tears and anguish of repentance. Do not let us rest until we have moved you with compassion. Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on us. Your ways are not our ways but make it so. Do not let our glory be a great start but rather a great finish. Crown us again with thy favor and thy presence. We are dullards and ungrateful. Renew us and put a right spirit within us. Cast far from us our stony hearts. Do not let us raise this generation in sin. Cause us to raise a holy generation whose lips are full of your praise. Save now dear Lord save now! We are in desperate peril. Our enemies are perched like vultures as they watch us stagger and stumble. You have raised the dead are you not able to raise the fallen in life? Humble this people. Cast our haughty eyes to the dust until we recall our origin but raise our spirits until we live in our destiny. Bring us to our knees in pleading, in agreement, aware of our need then answer our prayers. Cause us to be a wonder to the world a light of your glory. For thy namesake heal our nation. AMEN

A Change of Mind 9-13-08

I want to tell you about a set of events that occurred to me. I had felt the unction of the Holy Spirit to pray and fast. It was to be 7 days for the salvation of Alsup and 14 for other issues. Well on day 4 I found out I was leaving. Fasting is somewhat impractical when traveling shackled on a bus or plane for bowel reasons. This left me in a bit of a quagmire. There was a divine appointment to fast and pray and a physical reality making it impossible. Now I know there is a high minded spiritual thought here to follow the spirit and damn the circumstance. I am tempted by this more than most. This is where my strange lesson enters. The importance of the prayer targets is without question. The justifications to continue are without number. I had one problem. What if God changed His mind?

Part of me wants a God that is not a moving target. It simplifies my life. I know if I look through certain truths I will always see God. Another part of me wants a God that is flexible enough to hear my prayers and change His mind if necessary to answer them. Is it possible to have both? They seem mutually exclusive. Now the prayer could continue but the fasting had to stop. As I discontinued the fast I was surprised that the unction of the Holy Spirit also ceased. My first thought was did I sin. God fell silent in the succeeding moments which reinforced this thought. Finally in my frustration I asked Him "What is it you want?" This apparently was a profound moment. I was praying for the salvation of Alsup fervently and had all the scriptural support for God's mercy. There is just as much scriptural support for wrath but I felt mercy was the preeminent and predominant choice. Here is the subtlety "I felt." It was subjective. Also there was the real unction of the Holy Spirit in support and then its disappearance. Had God changed His mind? This question posed a few others. How do I relate to a God who is a moving target? Does this moving target rob from me the comfort of a God omni in all aspects? As I analyzed this I found they were not mutually exclusive. I was reminded of when my son Ethan began to walk. I was always just outside his reach as a moving target which inspired him to grow in his walk. I was always saying "come to Papa" with my face towards him and my eyes upon him. If he should stumble I would catch him before he fell. I was sensing God had shifted His intentions, He had moved, but this new revelation I was gaining was a "come to Papa" call.

One thing I've learned from this battle I'm in is that events change your mind, your course of action. They don't change your motives or goals. Now this is where I began to perceive the congruity between these opposing perceptions of God. God is changeless in His motives, will and goals but flexible in His course of action, adaptive. In a freewill environment it must be this way. Did something happen on earth or in the heavens that changed God's course? If so the "come to Papa" unction of the Holy Spirit would redirect the course of my walk. Maybe God needed to redirect my attentions to a counter attack that was mounted. There certainly were some manifestations of this occurring in the flesh. The administration here has gotten very nasty. This required immediate action to preserve interest that would have been a serious distraction to the fast and probably could have been devastatingly draining on me in my weakened state. Only God knows. The things these lessons and my study of prayer are teaching me is that God's actions might change but He is still a target to affix our hopes upon. What is prayer if it is not truth and heart reality in the pursuit of God Himself the ultimate truth and heart reality?

How can I lead God to Mr. Alsup or to my needs by argument, pleas, and the need itself if I can't find Him? This is why God has to be the sole desire of our prayers with our whole being. Any other prayer is vanity. Isn't really all answered prayer the summation of the one all important question "Does God exist?" Isn't every answered prayer the irrefutable answer "yes"? Therefore prayer has to be a vehicle of public relation in which God controls His testimony. Now God can perfect His testimony by the actions He takes toward Mr. Alsup but I must align my personal interest and prayer to the overall campaign. Therefore I urge all of you in your prayer life concerning your personal affairs and Dorean interest to keep your focus on the campaign Manager with obedience. Go with the unction even over reason and revelation will bring understanding soon enough. All this is another lesson that God is in control. Let us not practice the vanity of any other relationship. I do not yet know where my captors will take me or where the unction will take me. I do know comfortably that God is in control of both moves.

Authority (9-10-08)

In the Scriptures Jesus enters the temple and overturns the tables of the greedy money changers. These people never asked Him why because they knew their works evil. What they asked Him was by what authority did He do it. His answer is quite revealing. He spoke of laying down His life. On many occasions this was the authority He claimed. His house was to be a house of prayer and His redemptive death and His resurrection power was and is the authority to make those demands upon men. Yes Jesus is a King of Kings and Lord of Lords but His greatness He displayed in humble weakness.

When I began this 21 day fast it was by a divine appointment. My only hope of victory was God's house of prayer under the authority of Christ. I was facing robbers of a very high magnitude. Actually I felt a little overwhelmed by the task of prayer set before me by the Holy Spirit. This reminded me of Paul. He was a man of exceptional talents and a wonderful calling but he never viewed himself as a one man show. Almost everyone of his epistles has him petitioning the brethren for prayer that he might prevail.

This institution is losing its mind like Dublin. They are heaping insults and injury upon me and isolating me in anyway they can. Now God's purpose in this is like the solitary Island of Patmos where one gets his revelation. Though the sufferings and tortures sting the revelation is a precious reward. As the revelation comes I am troubled. This territory that God has His sights on is very well defended in spiritual terms. Even with importune prayer, fasting, and faith I felt no assurance the enemy could be displaced on my efforts alone. Sure one can imagine Christ performing the task of which He is potent and competent. Power is not the issue. It was more "do the people really want me, want this territory, or victory?" This is where I felt overwhelmed. I knew I could count on Christ for the strength to battle but did He have His saints praying. This was my prayerful concern all day. Call it measuring before one commits to battle. This is only the 3rd day of my fast but as I look at the enemy's camp I knew I might make a dent spiritually but more was needed. I received 4 letters in the mail this night. John & Monyah, Karen, Marilyn, and Winnie. They all had this in common; they said they were praying for me. Well I can't tell you what a timely answer to prayer that was. Thank you all so much for strengthening me with the revelation that Christ has provided all needed to storm these gates for victory. These 4 confirm the many others God has commanded and are obedient. Thank you all!

Now none of the retards are dumb enough now to question why since the mortgage industry has answered a thousand times over that it was evil. Their question is by what authority can two guys out of nowhere make a claim to resolve this issue. My answer should be as the Lord who challenges their authority into silence. I will say that because Christ died for mercy's sake and rose again into new life under the law of prayer and the many children who have received His call I am authorized to throw out the money changers. Throwing over their tables was just the beginning. Watch what this fast and praying accomplishes. Saints, together we approach a God who answers prayer. Think big, unite as drops forming an ocean and lets flood our enemies with the sovereign will of God's kingdom. "AMEN!" Pray with authority it has been given you!

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So-called Signs (9-10-08)

"If I am a man of God let fire come down from heaven and consume you and your fifty" Elijah said in II Kings I. This is a great miracle and certainly an attestation to Elijah's standing with God. It is a perverse and wicked generation that seeks after signs like this. This the same crowd that ridiculed Christ with taunts to get off the cross. It is the spirit behind the retards and so-called Christians. This is why you are so-called. If you knew Christ you would have the mind of Christ and know His ways. In olden times God performed many destructive miracles as this band discovered with Elijah. God over time has narrowed His focus from teaching in types and shadows to appearing Himself. Christ performed many miracles but only one of destruction. That of the curse of the fig tree. This statement was of a paramount necessity as a witness of what was transpiring with Israel. I don't think He wanted it that way but He could not gather them under His wing. Every other miracle and His teaching was all about restoration, revival, and love. You so-called don't see God deliver me with fire or at all. My prolonged suffering you attribute to justice and sin. Otherwise God would have entered in. This is the foolish expectation of the so-called crowd. Never can you picture Christ staying on a cross or making that demand of His children. The worst for you is that all the evidence of Christ is right before you but since you know him not you are oblivious to His ways. Only Christ can love His enemies. Only Christ can endure suffering with the joys of obedience. Only Christ can unravel the mysteries of His word. Only Christ can restrain His wrath and power through endless mercies. Only Christ can have hope for retards. All these things you witness Christ do through me but you discard it as counterfeit. One thing you fail to reason is that these things cannot be counterfeited because the only one who can practice them is authentic. If a man not knowing Christ attempted them he would fail from the inception because to counterfeit one has to have knowledge of the original which Christ never distributes to these outside His body. You really think the things of the spirit can be understood by the flesh? Your stupid financial ignorance of the flesh is not spiritual wisdom as you have so-called it. Christ is your only remedy to see Christ in me or anyone else.

So-called Christian (9-7-08)

Scott I saw your desire that someone would defend the term "so-called Christians." I thought I would take a crack at it. It is a moniker I would apply, I believe accurately, to yourself and others of your ilk. You know the Bible well enough to move in and out of the pews but these words have not captured your heart. You judge me by your mortgage ignorance as though this is divine insight. Your gut is fat with mere pabulum and self-assurances. Though you may have started with the simple gospel of a sinner saved by grace through faith you have long since abandoned this path for a righteousness of good works. That is why you practice the judgment of a dullard and boast as though you are wise. This is why john can say "They were among us but they were not of us." Why Jesus did not commit Himself to them even though His praises flew off their lips. He also said "depart from me you workers of iniquity." Paul said "Oh foolish who has bewitched you" and when speaking of the Corinthian church said "some people have no knowledge of God. I say this to your shame." Retards is the less polite phrase I use. History is clear and the future also makes it clear retards are always present in the church of Christ. Forget not that the demon possessed man was a regular of the synagogue Jesus taught in. Your 20 year claim of a walk is unimpressive for your words betray your heart. You judge me by what? By the wisdom of Christ? Bullshit! If you knew the Lord you would know me. You would see things of the spirit and confess of the great wonders of the Lord. Instead you have found condemnation of God's work justified by a wisdom entirely by the flesh. Your retort is simply the mirror accusation that is exactly what I'm doing but in this you further deceive yourself. Job's friends and Job appear to be of the same wisdom until the end when God speaks and Job is approved. Though we both quote the Bible only one of us use it as words of life. You are definitely more attractive than I. Your life is pleasing to this world and the Christ I preach is a stumbling block. What I find funny is that you did not need to go to God to find the truth in my indictment and neither will you need to go to God to find the falsity of this indictment. Yet that is precisely the indictment "you don't go to God" but rely on your own strength. The grace of God you have perfected into a license does not exempt you from criminal sanctions in the spirit. True grace drives you to God for more grace. The cheap grace of "so-called Christians" is a wedge of deceit that isolates a man to an island of self-righteous piety. Just because islands can group together does not make them apart of one body. The Christ within me and within my work would find an audience of prayerful support in you if the surname "Christian" did not have the given name "so-called" before it. If you ever become brave enough to approach the throne of God again as a wretched sinner you will find my advocate there. Until then I will exhaust myself with prayer and fasting for my friend. Exit the Laodicean Church before the Lord spew you out!

Holy Spirit Leading (9-2-08)

Preamble: What I'm about to share with you the retards will dismiss as numerology, fancy, hocus-pocus, and fanaticism. The retards are the reason the truth herein exist and why we need to take it very seriously to heart.

All of us were ourselves retards. Ignorant to the ways of God. But now we have the mind of Christ a gift from the Holy Spirit. (1 Cor. 2:8-16) The Holy Spirit is our guide and leads us in the way we should go.

This leading was made obvious to me recently. The events are conveyed to you in hope God will make it equally obvious to you.

A couple of weeks back my wife sent me a paper she found in my Bible that had the Biblical meanings of certain numbers. I reviewed it just to refresh my memory. One number jumped off the page "51." This is the number for divine revelation which I had forgotten. I so desired divine revelation at the moment. Around the same time the chaplin surprised me with a book on prayer which was right where my studies were taking me. The book I recommend for all of you who want to see God's victory in your life. E.M. Bounds on Prayer, Baker Book House, ISBN 9780801064944. Certain needs were also at the time crushing in on me. All this was an opportunity ripe for the leading of the Holy Spirit. I needed grace for certain situations and now was the time I needed it. Well there was a 51 about to show up in my life. I had been in the SHU for a little over 40 days. THe Holy Spirit made it clear to me that I needed to fast and pray for 5 days for God's grace and that the 5th day needed to be the 51st day and God would give me divine revelation. One serious problem lay in the way. My current celly was a spiritual retard convinced he is going to heaven and no amount of truth can convince him otherwise. I was certain he had to go and that I needed this time alone. The SHU is full at the moment so a single cell was not likely. About the only hope was being the trustee who stayed by himself since he doesn't get cuffed up like the rest of us. The praying I felt would be full of tears, groans, and travailing. Not something one can hide from a celly in a 10' box. Time to launch my fast was rapidly approaching. The current trustee was one cell up from ours across the hall. His door window could be seen from ours. My celly was looking out our door at the exact moment that this trustee was showing girly pictures through his window to our neighbors. It turns out these pictures are my celly's. (see what I mean by retard) The trustee had stolen them form his property. A big No No. This makes the officers look really bad. He got fired. Well as the Holy Spirit had designed I am made trustee, placed in a single cell just at the time of my launch. We were off to a good start. I did pray and fast. I had much trustee work to do but for the most part I was left in the laundry room alone with God. On day 3 they hired a new Captain who told me I would be fired after 30 days as a matter of his policy. 30 days alone is worth any amount of work. On day 4 I spoke with the Warden about my suspended visits. The Captain was present. Not much had transpired to date except a lot of praying, crying, and travailing. Day 5 was upon me and I haven't got my answer and I didn't think I was suppose to go longer. The leading by the numbers was confirmed by the Holy Spirit. As part of my conversation with the Warden he authorized an extra phone call to get the word out I'm allowed no visits. I called my wife with about an hour left on my fast. She confirmed all the reasons why I was in prayer for God's grace. When I hung up I was crushed. I cried out and groaned in ways not thought possible. The Holy Spirit was present. The meal to break the fast was soon coming and I was desperate. As I prayed it was like the burdens I was attempting to lift to heaven was crushing me. Suddenly in an instant it was like the hand of God reached down and grabbed that burden and I was liberated. Within a minute, barely enough time for joy to wipe away my tears, it was chow time. As they handed me the meal I was informed I was getting a new celly. Does this mean I'm fired? Yes! I was trustee by the design of the Holy Spirit just long enough to get the job of prayer done. I prayed my celly would be a divine appointment and not a retard. He is a babe in Christ backsliden. I had to fast again for 3 days just to say thank you. I would have thought this victory of prayer would have caused me to relax and savor but it did just the opposite. I began to immediately imagine what greater victories can be wrought. My next assignment is a 7 day fast just for the salvation of Alsup. This cellly is not a retard but he has to go. Trustee is not an option so what will God do. I'm praying now for the opportunity to pray. The numbers that jump out at me is 9-8 to 9-14. Eight is the number for new beginning and fourteen is for Salvation. Seven is completion. I have my launch day and the obstacle. I also have the personal proof that God answers prayer. Non answered prayer hurts the body of Christ and increases doubts and faithlessness. One should not venture into prayer except with the importunity to obtain the answer. Answered prayer increases faith and confirms again the testimony of the gospel that God loves men, answers prayer, and is in complete control. Here is my challenge to you upon my witness. Let us pray together. Not words to bounce off the ceiling but a prayer that will not quit. The devil in his minion bankers are in the middle of a plan to displace 3 to 4 trillion dollars from the people through their mortgage shams. We with knowledge of God and the plan must ask God to intervene and prevent this transfer. God by His character and promises is disposed to grant our request if we can prove we desire His will. We need to pray God stops this. Not as our ultimate goal but the victory for the great battle. Money is not that big a deal but if you can't win this battle how can you fight for the souls of men? Our generation is crying out for God's divine intervention and it is us few who can call it down from heaven. I'm in the fight, how about you?

Business Plan (5-1-08)

Dorean was designed by the Lord to make a special mark in history. In each client's history, in financial history, in political history, legal history, and the history of its founders. The plans shows the brilliance of its Creator. I was informed by God how to structure the company. The trust was essential because a trustee was needed to insure everyone obtained their benefit. The love of money is the root of all evil. The characteristic of this evil is that it turns one's heart away from faith and God to self. Dorean had a test built into it where each client's heart would be tested. Most of you failed this test. Don't fret God has not forgotten you. Even in your failure God is loving you. When He is finished you will have seen the truth of your heart and will never be comfort­able in the lie again. This is a tremendous kindness though the course of rev­elation inherently had to be painful. A surgeon's scalpel causes pain but with the goal of healing. Likewise you will be healed. On the legal front Dorean is building a bridge others will cross over in the future. Dorean was God's tool to interrupt a stupor that had consumed the American populace. The church was not exempt which is evidence it was of this world. Now that I've been given the knowledge of the end God's plan makes even more sense. Like all of you my under­standing was not complete in the beginning. We should never expect otherwise since trust and faith is the exercise of eternal importance. A mortgage is a longterm decision in a short-term existence. In perspective God needed to use the vehicle to extend your sight to relevant matters. It is my hope Dorean will have this end result. I can say from the single closest example before me that God was about the business of enhancement. Scott has trusted the Lord to the full sacrifice of everything else. When I met Scott his walk was not this mature. Even through his tears, pain, suffering, and lack of understanding he kept per­severing with diligent faith. Many of you will be very proud of him and will learn much from his testimony of faith. He will be the best and perfect example of what God intended by creating Dorean. He has been stripped of that which was killing his spirit and given the breath of life. The economics were never in peril but had to be delayed for the betterment of all involved. I'll be posting a blog on June 11th with the update for the phase one payouts. This is the re­coupment of your fee paid to Dorean and the amount of your mortgage(s) entered into the program. This had to be delayed past the interference of the bully cowards. Phase two will be for profits. Soon all the retards will be moving to other blogs. I've already begun the implementation. of the things I need to do. I will leave you with this caveat: If you don't follow my instructions in detail you will not get paid. Timing: I'm expecting to have my work done by the middle of August. You will be given 90 days to do what you have to do and payouts will be about April. Expect little variances for unseen problems. Watch and see the goodness of the Lord! Watch how He wipes all your tears away and brings you joy and gladness for sorrow and mourning.

Your Good Judge (4-28-08)

Everybody knows the motives of Kurt but no one questions the motives of Judge Alsup. This is funny to me since his actions are so obvious to those with wisdom. He is the champion of all my critics. Will he survive a critical ex­amination? How come he is exempted from the judgmental scrutiny of the retards? Let me see if I can help. Will I convince one of these retards to repent? I doubt it but perhaps their ridiculous notions will be a little more obvious.

Who is Judge Alsup? He is a man trapped in his knowledge of good and evil. He is in disunion with God. Even if the infantile Christian types argue here that he is God's agent the point still remains he is in disunion. I have taught you enough on agency that an agent in disunion with the principal is a rogue on his own. He is liable for all his self-interest and breach. If the office is of God the man must still submit to the creator of the office to be God's agent. Alsup living in his knowledge of good and evil axiomatically is in breach. God is above man's good and evil judgments and judges man entirely in a different manner. Jesus demands unity and that the man as judge, as his own god, be overcome. Judgment passed on another man always presupposes disunion with him. Alsup de­clared me a villain and I likewise declared him a villain. Is there a difference? Yes! I seek unity with him in love giving opportunity not to remain a villain. He in disunion only wishes to destroy me. His judgment is harsh not intended for reconciliation. God's judgment is for reconciliation. This is your first big clue of the spirit behind the man.

When someone functions from their knowledge of good and evil they have to be seen. (Think of Neo, Fruity, and Scott) Because they believe their judgment good they must bring it out in the pen so that they can judge it good as a judgment. It was the problem of the pharisee confronted by Jesus. The action taken by Alsup by its very nature of disunity with God and man, good and evil lived in the extreme, is false action or hypocrisy. He condemns himself by his condemnation of me. It ­is not as though Alsup has not taken an action he thinks good, genuine, and pleasing to God but rather that the action he's taken only further increases the schism be­cause it flows from the arrogant heart of a self-willed rebel. Like Cain he has made an offering that he demands God accept because he has judged it good. There is no unity with God by act or intention. These judgments are most severe because the judge recognizes his personal foible in the condemned. It is not out of dark mot­ives that this judgment proceeds. It is not man's wickedness that these judgments are evil. These judgments are evil because they are the apostasy themselves. For this reason evil comes forth from the heart of the judge. "Judging" is not a spec­ial vice or wickedness of the disunited man; it is his essence, manifesting itself in speech, his action and sentiment. This can only be seen and understood from the unity of Christ. Judge Alsup can know himself in his virtues and vices but not in his essence, in his apostasy. He is blind trying to remove the speck out of my eye. He is the perfect champion for the retards on here who don't know their essence. There is a genuine judgment that springs from reconciliation with origin but that judgment is a whole other life. Alsup and his congregation of retards would have to die to themselves which is the very thing they all wish to preserve. One can only become a good judge by surrendering judgment and reconciling with the good judge.

God is Love (4-26-08)

Most people think of love as an attribute of God and ignore that love, as a substance, is God. There is not a love that is not God. How did God reveal Him­self to man? Jesus Christ is the expression of God and the love of God simultan­eously. When we come to the knowledge of Christ we come to the knowledge of love. This is not a cause and effect type relationship that is sequential in time but a concomitant fact. As soon as the revelation of God lights your soul you are lov­ing God. The act of repentance is the only response to the love of God being known. If repentance does not exist the love of God and God Himself is not known. Now many have the idea of love. These can do great sacrificial works. This is not a known judgment only an example. Mother Theresa could do all her works and never know God or His love. Once God and His love is known you are in relationship, fellowship. You are now living far and above your cursed judgment of good and evil. Good and evil is a place of conflicts that must be resolved in judgment. This is seen here on the blog. Dorean by its actions left many here in conflict. They could not reconcile their private law of good with the actions taken by Dorean. This conflict had to be resol­ved in judgment. These modern pharisees possessed with knowledge of God's word but not with knowledge of God were left with no choice but to enter judgment of condemn­ation. They are the origin not God. They don't even realize that their profession of judgment is self-condemnation. It is their confession that they do not know God or His love. Living in the love of God is a spontaneous, contemporary, real-time existence. God speaks and our hearing, proving, and doing are immediate. Trust is faster than a reflex which is sequential. Rather it is man being as he was designed under God as his origin. We are the body of Christ moving without a separate thought than that of the mind. Christ wanting something done makes the loving demand on His body and the body loves the demand placed upon it by the One it loves, which gave it life. Persecution and suffering are guaranteed. The pharisees had no choice but to cruxify Christ because He lived above their conflicts, which created another conflict. I am not the messiah nor conflicted by those accusations. For me to be as Christ is not good or evil. It is not of an origin within myself. Christ is who He is which makes me who I am. Accursed by others and pleasing to God. Because I am in Christ I can say like Christ "if you loved God you would love me." Many of you call your­selves Christians but the Christianity you know is your own good and evil knowledge amalgamated with scripture. It is you sitting in judgment of God and all His cre­ation. It is you in disunion disavowing those living in unity with God. It is im­possible for you to function in your good and evil knowledge and to love God. God is above you and your knowledge and never will He bow at your throne. You will bow at His. You will hear "depart from me I never knew you" and won't be surprised. Those in Christ will hear "you fed me, visited me. etc..." They will not know of their actions because they did not sit in judgment of their actions or of what actions God was taking. They simply moved by the spirit with its origin outside themselves. I cannot predict the path my obedience will take or how painful our suffering will become, since the origin of Dorean was not Scott and Kurt there is no conflict to be resolved. It was resolved by its creator and His love. I'm certain when God issued His decree to enter into the righteous battle it was already a settled matter in the heavens that this was good. No judgment was necessary. Now comes man in his arrogance to challenge the heavens and issue a judgment of fault. Can there be any­thing more foolish? People pay attention to the critics and what they are really saying. If you do you will come away thinking they are retards.

Freed at First, Freed at Last (4-25-08)

Being incarcerated is perceived a lack of freedom and yet it can be a situation of liberation. Greed is the sin moniker for my character by my anonymous critics. This judgment proceeds from their knowledge of good and evil. Proudly they show off their wares in the marketplace. How pleased they are with themselves. They convince themselves they are wise knowing through their good and evil that they know me, my motives, and character. Sure they are free to judge me but are they free from judg­ment? To answer this question one must go to origin. Man was made in the image of God, which was fellowship and drawing from the life of origin. When man chose to be like God with the knowledge of good and evil he acquired judgment, shame, and nakedness. He gained this knowledge at the highest price; the loss of life. Unlike God whose being is the origin of good and evil man must obtain this knowledge at the estrange­ment of God. Man becomes a god in that he is the origin of his good and evil, but not the origin of himself. His good and evil is not a virtue but a curse to him. It is not the good and evil of God but a good and evil against God. The scripture that talks of removing the log in your own eye before you help your neighbor with the speck in his eye is a perfect truth of this state. Out of their judgment against God they be­lieve themselves God's advocate to perfect good and evil understanding upon the world. This is not God's judgment or standard of judgment only that of one in rebellion. What should be shameful is proud. The rebel becomes the blind prophet dictating to others the path of destruction is the way to fellowship with God. What can be more greedy than a man wanting to be God? These are my judges. Do they know greed? Like no one else, but they don't know themselves. When a man returns the shame of his re­bellion in a face to face fellowship with God seeking forgiveness he begins the long trek of restoration to the true knowledge of himself, only out of this place can he judge himself and judge others correctly. Here his judgment is not his own but the judgment of Christ. Origin is reinstated. Man who was reed at first to fellowship with God is freed at last from his disunion curse of good and evil. Ethics, morals, laws are all cursed in that their origin is the heart of a rebel thinking his good­ness is godliness. What a stupid retard is the mind that believes this good. My prison still has hope and remedy but yours has but one; death. Only when you trust God that loss is gain and death is life will you be freed. Then my dear friend you will be free to judge me as I am judged. At the cross you will find me when you visit there yourself.

Forward Motion (4-25-08)

The Court of Appeals wants to appoint counsel. At this level pro se is not constitutionally guaranteed. Martinez v. Court of Appeals 145 L.Ed 2d 597. This forces me to file a motion to obtain the privilege. The other option is to con­ditionally accept their offer. If I am forced to take on an attorney it will delay my appeal by another 6 months. If not, I can get it done in about 18 months. We have good justification to get this privilege granted but who knows the level of resistance we face. I have one new thing to file in the lower court which I will post as a blog. This is a much faster track than the appeal. Scott and I are now at our respective institutions. We will be returning to Dublin for one last hearing for restitution. This will be fun. The court can't define money yet it can come up with figures for restitution. Many of you have received victim impact statements. I want you to use them if you desire, if you trust the government. I don't care what is said good or bad. I believe it irrelevant to the battle at hand. When the movie is re­leased I will place a link here. It will be up to you to get the word out.

This will be a helpful tool on any account. Education is what will grant us relief from ignorance. I hear some of you are making plans to visit me. This is very kind and I thank you in advance. Some of you near the Santa Barbara area might consider the­ same for Scott. Pray for our wisdom as we attempt to undo the injustice that is working against us. God is not wringing His hands with concern over our troubles. What He is doing is looking for faith. Will He find it?

Truth Repeated (4-25-08)

I recently read the Hiding Place and Tortured for Christ. One suffered under Fascism and the other under Communism. One thing was clear from both these accounts. Those who suffer for Christ's sake learn about His love. Those who claim knowledge of His love yet seek the comfort of this world in God's name distribute cruelty easily. Just 60 years ago the truth I'm repeating was proven by these two saints. They don't need your approval because they possess what retards only profess. I recommend each of these books. Tortured for Christ can be found at www.persecution.com and The Hiding Place at Amazon or Christian Book Distributors.

1 Thessalonians 2:4 in part states "We do not try to please people, but to please God, who test our motives." Everyone knows I was motivated by greed. Did God not test my motives? Do you think He would let it stand if greed was present? God matures His children. If you haven't experienced this you are bastards. My heart is under constant examination. Not just for Dorean but for 32 years. I don't live to please retards, only God. When He says "well done" there is no greater satisfaction. These two saints and many of you knows this. This is our strength. With this strength blessed men go through their valleys of weeping. (Ps. 84)

I want to encourage you in Christ to allow Him to complete His work in you regardless of the pain and suffering. God always has purpose behind His intent towards you. These books will remind you of this truth. The retards with their cruelty are very displeasing to God. 1 Thes. 2:15. Yes they can go around and think they are pleasing to God and act as though they are the holy saints that should be modeled but they could never do what the saints in this book accomplished. Under just gentle brainwashing persuasion these retards conform to the dictates of this world. Imagine if gun, torture, separation from family, reputation, or life itself were to put them to the test. They would justify why they went coward. I will use Bill Julian as an examp1e. He had every chance given him by the Lord to stand up and be counted in this battle. He turned his eyes from the price of fellowship with God to loss of his house and wife.

In an attempt to preserve both he lost both. Still he suffers from a lack of fellowship from God because he is too ashamed to forgive himself and run towards the Lord for forgiveness. Is this really worth it? What about eternity? How can we live with Christ as one we love forever without being able to do so when betraying Him here in this probationary period? Look to Christ where our help comes from and don't worry about the cares of this world. Even if you lost house, family, friends and reputation you have lost nothing. You have gained God as a friend. Time is our friend because the master of time and life will deliver us from the evils of this world as He has delivered us from the power of sin and death. Who can separate us from such a love? Let the retards have their fleeting moments of boast and glory and share in the cross of Christ which is victory beyond measure. Keep your eyes upon the truth as these great saints did and just perhaps we will see triumph in this lifetime as we will in eternity. That is my prayer for all of you in your suffering.

A Jurisdictional Thought (4-24-08)

I thought I would take a moment to clarify some truths. The mail fraud statute was created to protect the public from frauds and swindles related to money issues. At the time these were cons of counterfeiting bank notes. Banks issued their own notes and securities. The mails were being used to defraud victims far away from the cities where these frauds were initiated. Now, as 1341, it is being used far outside the in­ tent of congress. For this reason there £s no implementing regulation to make it a positive law. All those arguments about how the feds got jurisdiction are entirely bogus. They don't have subject matter jurisdiction, they never have, and they never will. From the moment they attacked us they were the criminal. Now let's pretend for a moment that the statute is positive law. The enhancement for financial institutions is not a penalty issue alone. If your theory is correct than congress has created a statute hybrid where part can be proven by the standard of preponderance and part by the standard of beyond a reasonable doubt. Explain how this is not barred by their constitution. Look at title 21 § 841 and you will see how there is a separate penalty section. This is how congress addresses their penalty intent. If congress wants to create a penalty enhancement for just sentencing purposes like guns (Title 18 920's) they pass a separate statute. When they change the existing statute like they did in 1989 to 1341 they added elements that if pled would have to be proven. Why did the prosecution always go mute on this subject and Alsup lose all the color in his face every time I brought this up? Why is the FBI trying to develop another indictment if I'm truly going to be down for 25 years? Mortgage and Dorean are irrelevant to 1341. Alsup is the lawless one. All those kissing his ass by following his lead are as lawless as he. You should fear your ignorance not these pirates. I could go after every BoP staff, every clerk, prosecutor, marshal, and judge who has touched this void prosecution if I wanted to. Making them pay the price might be the most loving thing one can do for a person lost in a stuper of ignorance.. brutally enforced.

The conspiracy fails as 1341 does. Neither of these charges can or will prevail. I'm going through this suffering and the motions to protect all of us from crooks while the bankers and their bullies abuse me and confuse you I know right where I stand. I know their weakness and as so as the bullies fail it will be exposed. I wish some of you critics were capable of debate. You don't do any study and merely repeat a fool's retort. You will all disappear when you lose the advantage of deceptive circumstance. Most of you were patriot fans this year but who knows next year. You bet on Alsup be­cause you think he can't be beat. This you do only as a hopeful fan, not one with know­ledge. Prove my comments on 1341 wrong as a favor to all of us. If you can't maybe you should check your own bilge pump, I think it's a little backed up.

Who is Kurt Johnson (8-22-08)

There are many opinions about this question, but I think I might be the expert on this one. For those who would like to know I write to you.

At 13 years of age I was arrested by Jesus the Christ. I was already on my way to hell and like most oblivious. God took an interest in me and led me to some great preachers of the word. I grew quickly but was also unaware of a dangerous companion coming along for the ride. Pride was its name. I went off to Bible College at 17 naively thinking this is where the cream surfaced. The opposite was true. Pride had driven me there but God was going to make the best of it. It was not long and I fell into sin. I was crushed and suffered from guilt. Instead of repenting I withdrew in shame. For about 18 months I didn't serve the Lord. My way back was feeble and tentative. The cost was high but it also was a perfect cure for pride. The result was seeing God as my source of strength. This truth literally renewed me. You have heard me repeat this over and over again. It is a perpetual lesson for me. In every shadow of my heart this light must come to bear.

My life grafted again into the church. I fell into the normal manly things a good career, wife and kids. God still showed favor upon me but pride was no longer an option. Instead a certain zeal for God's house and His people overtook me. In an honest reflection of my history I can easily say this zeal has caused more trouble in my life than any other single event. I challenged pastors, friends, and deacons as a malcontent. The church was not attentive or alert concerning the word of God. They were sloppy, lazy, and apathetic. They had programs, psychology, music, drama and formulas but no life. Finally after 25 years I had to divorce. I went to the only voice I saw true and committed to his ministry; Dr. Gene Scott. I read intelligent men and remained vigilant in study. God again showed me favor and was faithful.

Dorean was birthed out of my Bible study. I had that personal prophecy about finance and marriage so I was always exposed to insights in these areas. As I looked at the word of God and overlaid it with our current economy and the banker's plans I saw a conflict. God's plans and man's plans were in opposition. Experience had taught me to bet on God. This is what I call a faith opportunity. When a man of faith comes across this he is to join with God and enter the frey of battle. Scotty was brave enough to join. Though I'm not certain with the same understanding. Again zeal has caused me trouble. I know God's ways always prevail upon man. A brave man will risk everything to prove this again but not vainly. Those who foolishly oppose God in this matter have had their day in court so to speak. All their testimony has been collected and every heart has been measured. Now God testifies. This is where I am in prayer and I hope you faithful are in concert with this prayer. Nothing will have to be said only let God speak and truth will shut the mouth of all the liar. I continue to wager my life on this outcome. Even this week I was put in a position to offend the Ninth Circuit, which many believe my hope, or offend God. The choice was easy and now there are men furious with Kurt Johnson. Oh that I could offend this world in pleasing God. Many of you know me because you know the same God who chastises and loves His children. Bastards will never understand us. Let them bet on man and glory as they appear to have the upper hand. Oh but we have been there many times with God and have countless victories to show for it. In the end I describe myself and my importance in pleasing God. I learned long ago in that futile 18 months that pleasing myself was death. So if you are not pleased with me neither am I. The one opinion that matters is who I consult with.

All or Nothing (8-25-08)

Most certainly all we can know of God comes to us through the miracle of divine revelation in a small and close intimacy. This is not ever intended to narrow our vision or faith. On the contrary it is designed to be our launching pad into the vast and spacious expanse of God's person and character. First we look to the things He has done but this is still not the intimacy of a son. A son can know something of his father by reputation but what will he know of him by seeking him out in relationship? The miracles of the book of Acts are inspiring but God wants to know of you now in this generation. Is it not said that He who freely gave His son will not freely give to you? Look, human thought and imagination cannot capture the vastness of God's goodness or His mercies. You are the one that needs to expand your faith and petitions. God wants to do a new thing. Your testimony of the great works faith and prayer have wrought is the testimony this generation seeks. Moses and the Egyptians will only add relevance to a God they discover is alive and ruling today. Christianity is potent because of historical facts. Is not your life His story? What facts are apparent in your life. What prayers are answered? What have you conquered? What miracles have you witnessed? Why exactly do you suspect God called you to this Dorean mess and the truth of credit? Is there not a His story He is writing with your life? Do you want a boring story of existence or a great power and might. Jesus lives forever to make intercession for you. Can you understand what can be accomplished if the simple tears of your prayers are joined to this cataract of potential? Jesus said of the cross "I am trouble but for this very thing I came into the world." Your troubles came into your world for the same reason, to show Christ as the all in all. Wake up to your opportunity and get to praying for "all things" "whatsoever" and "anything." I want Alsup saved, family healed, clients prosperous and wise full of the knowledge of Christ, victor over the lie of the bankers and His will done on earth as it is in heaven, and I won't quit until I get it all and more!

Time for the Rally Cap (8-24-08)

The rally cap really is a silly notion but imbued with a profound truth. In baseball when your team is down, you down your rally cap. In doing so you say we have faith, don't quit, you can do it. It is a concerted show of importunity. It is trivial because baseball is a game irrelevant to any true care of a normal existence. Also because the world's show of hope has no real basis behind it. They know not the real God who states "cast all your cares upon Him for your care is His constant concern." Who wants us to pray for our daily bread. The truth in these rally caps that should shame us is how far a trivial matter men, heathen, will rally to a goal, a cause, a desire. God notices the behavior as He did in the tower of babel. What I think we of the faith are missing is that God encourages this importune spirit in His saints. When was the last time you rallied behind a cause? When I say cause here I'm sure most of you will think of something larger than your life that requires concert with others. Though that does come into the life of the called out ones I'm thinking of something small and close. What is this life if it is not a probationary training small and close for the giant expanse of eternity? The Syrophoenician women only wanted the health of her daughter not some earth changing event. Yet she was noticed for her rally cap. What I think we are failing to miss as our great boon of opportunity is that God cares for you. Dorean is a concert against injustice, inequity but you alone experience that individually. Have you put on your rally cap until you obtain victory for yourself? How then will you benefit the concert? We know by God's own words He hates injustice. We also know He used the words "anything and whatsoever" in the promise of prayer. These words are so big so all encompassing that they can have the reverse effect of doubt. We need to get passed that to understand the full richness of these promises. I have talked much of faith but faith has no tongue to express itself but prayer. It cannot get to the throne to grip its promise except to ride prayer. How is your prayer life? Are you rallying to your cause? I'm reminded of a couple of stories from Elisha. At the end of the drought after God promised such Elisha still had to pray 7 times before a cloud appeared. What if he quit at 4, 5, or 6? Are you quitting before your victory? Again he tells the king just before he dies to bang some arrows on the floor. The king does 3 times and Elisha laments. "Oh that you would have done it more" then you would have total victory over your enemies. I don't know about you but I've put on my rally cap and I'm not going to stop banging my arrows until I hear God say enough. We have a wonderful loving Father who is not like the wicked judge of the parable. He wants to give but the rally cannot be ignored. It is how He strengthens His children and causes them to grow. My wife and mother-in-law have a disease called CMT. This is unacceptable to me. Now I can't pretend to be so philanthropic that I act as though I care about your victory more than theirs. But in obtaining theirs my hope increases for yours and my concert is enhanced by my individual victories. That's what I want for all of you. I want to delight in your personal victories and to join you for the corporate victory. Don't presume the minute details of your life are not worthy of spiritual effort. The scriptures teach the opposite. You were left in a temporal world for your spiritual training. These cannot be separated. Your victory over a broken toaster must come long before a victory over addictions, heartache, or bankers. I do think allegorically we have come together to the 7th inning stretch and it appears we are behind. The rally cap may be trivial in the world but to us who believe truly all things are possible in Christ Jesus. Rally time! I pray this truth takes root in your spirit.

Final Phase (8-18-08)

I've been informed that my traveling legal work which contains the "Phase One" blog will catch up to me shortly. This means I will post it soon. The web-page is still developing. The course though delayed is still progressing. My gut tells me that though this prison wants me out of here God wants me to stay a couple more months. The divorce between us is a destiny just a little premature. If my spiritual sense is wrong God has moved me for His good reason. The move most likely when it comes will move me back to California. I'm still in the SHU. 40 days as of this writing. God has used me here so it is no accident.

Let me talk with you on a serious note. In the story of Gideon he started out with 32,000 soldiers. All of them were good men. By the time God finished His selection process there were only 300. This selection process is about to be applied to you clients. Before I initiate "Phase Two" I will be down to what I'm calling "The Gideon Band." Most of you will be sifted out unable to progress. "Phase One" is the end of the line for you. I have no doubt that "Phase One" is the end of my relationship with most of you. There are others I desire to continue with but I cannot select you. I can warn you though this truth that there is a way in a man that seems right in his own eyes that is in the end his folly. I know how God is going to separate you and I am praying that your faith fail not. It is time for you to be vigilant in prayer for temptation is at your doorstep. I am leading you in the way that is right and doing what Christ asks of me. This I offer you to watch and discern what Christ is requiring of me. I am not allowed to tell you how to pass this test only to pass it myself as an example. Your worldly wisdom will fail you. The correct response permeates the entire Dorean story as well as the entire gospel. The truth is not hidden to those who will seek it with all your heart. I can tell you that the blessing of "Phase Two" in comparison to "Phase One" would make "Phase One" appear to be an insult. "Phase Two" is exceedingly abundant above what you can ask or think. I will not have to seek you out. Those of you who God disqualifies will come to me bragging about how right the choice is you made. The others will come to me with humble fear in the discovery of how foolish their wisdom was. God is wise to sift you. "Phase Two" would destroy the "good people" who don't know His ways. Some of you are going to be so led by fear and the devil that you will be robbed even of "Phase One." You are without excuse and I will not rescue you from your own folly. As I see it the retards use correct words though they have no understanding how to apply them when they say "you get what you deserve." Phase One, Phase Two, or Phase Out you decide. Some of you I love and I have heart robbery in your hearts please seek the Lord with all your heart. The plans He has for you are good.

A Pleasant Bitter Contrast (8-7-08)

I have written you about the pattern of Nehemiah and the pattern of rebellion but now I want you to look at the same truth from the other side of the human experience. In the book of Ruth we have a character named Naomi. She is a wife and mother who loves God. Her name means pleasant. The story takes place during the time of judges about 100 years before King David. During that time God used to use famines to get the attention of the wayward hearts common in the Israelites. This is one of those times. A family from Bethlehem which ironically means house of bread is forced to leave to a neighboring country Moab. Ebimelech, his wife Naomi, and their two sons Mahlon (sickly) and Chilion (puny) travel. The names of the children probably reflecting the effects of the famine upon this family. While in Moab the sons marry. Then all the males die leaving Naomi a widow with two daughter-in-laws. Naomi upon hearing of the end of the famine wishes to return home a broken woman. In this plan she request that her daughters go return to their families. The reasoning being she has nothing to offer them in this world. One daughter returns but Ruth insists on remaining. If you look at the language you can see clearly this is a spiritual choice of faith. Naomi truly had nothing left to offer in this world but she knew the living God and did not serve the worthless idols of the Moabites. Ruth's eyes were on the eternal promise not this life. These two return to Bethlehem not in glory but in bitterness. Naomi depicts this by calling herself Mara which means bitter. Ruth takes on the role of a beggar's existence in support of her mother-in-law. As she goes about this existence she comes across a field that belongs to a relative named Boaz. Boaz is a type of Christ in many ways inside this story. He takes notice of her and out of his abundance makes provision for her. When Ruth comes home with a bounty not consistent with a beggar's lot and discovers the reason is Boaz she gets a spiritual intuition God is up to something. Now by all accounts she has a right to be bitter. It certainly appeared God was punishing her. Yet even with this misunderstanding the hope of God awoke her spirit. Well Boaz investigates the faith of this woman Ruth and his fancy turns to love. I constantly told you faith will cut its own path and keep you in God's will. Boaz as Christ here notices faith and is drawn in love towards it. Also like Christ though he desires to redeem Ruth and Naomi He has to fulfill the law and obey all God's commands. This he does willingly. After the time of Christ work he weds the faithful one of His kin. Joy and redemption now enter in Naomi's situation. Ruth is better than seven sons and the child Obed more than fills the void. What Naomi didn't understand in the beginning was all this heartache was not for bitterness sake but to graft her and Ruth into the lineage of the Messiah. Here again bitterness if seen in the eyes of faith is pleasant. This story refutes the retard who judge only in bitterness. As they misinterpret success they misinterpret suffering. Don't be like the retards.

The Babel of the Retards

I have just written about the pattern found in Nehemiah. Well let me use the folly before you to show another familiar pattern. I've also made it clear that God is in control. This is a very basic truth that is obvious to any who are not retards. In the book of Genesis chapter 9 man has just passed through the flood. God's plan was for man to prosper and to replenish the earth. Because of an illicit union of rebellion there was a major setback and destruction. God's plans for man had not changed and again He reiterates them to Noah and his sons. He tells them go "Be fruitful and multiply, fill the earth." This command seems simple enough and even natural but it won't take long for the retards to screw it up. In chapter 11 man has come to himself. Ignoring God's command they have chosen not to scatter and fill the earth but rather to remain in one place that seemed good in their sight. They also chose to make a name for themselves. This is that private and devastating chorus "me, me, what about me?" Every time I hear it I see it come from a person headed for trouble. It was no different here. When they wanted to make a name for themselves what they were really making their goal was to cast off the name of God from its place of authority over them. In fact the city's foundation was rebellion and the tower was the religious center that would reach to the heavens. Their delusion was that they could have a god in service under their authority. If it had been later in history they may even have called this sub-servant god Christ like the retards of today. But the real God which includes the real Christ even in this story says "let us go check out their plans." Seeing that it was contrary to His command He decides to confuse their language. Have you ever seen a retard whose language is not confused? It seems all common sense has left them. The irony in this wake is how they pontificate in what they think brilliance. Retards even if they collect themselves in the solidarity of a union still cannot thwart God's plan. In the end even against their heart's desire they were scattered to fill the earth. God is in control. God gets it His way. Here the great success of man would find praises in the mouths of the log eyed critics of today. The great city and awesome tower being clear evidence of God's blessing. They think they can recalibrate when they see God interrupt but they leave this place confused. Real faith can see long before God intervenes that man's actions are contrary to God's command. The man of faith does not view the great city as success but folly. He does not need to see its destruction to come to this understanding but he knows this when the first brick is laid in rebellion. Let the brilliant retards continue to ridicule me and you. They can glory in the great city the FBI and Alsup have built or be awed by the high towers of the bankers, but I saw the first brick laid in rebellion. God took time to move but a move was a guarantee. That is our promise. Amen!

Slow Progress (8-7-08)

I am being hampered in speed by my circumstances. I have not been able to get the payout website up. This is nobodies fault just the nature of events. Thank the Lord it shall be completed. Pray for me in this because I have a time table to hit that is controlled by other parties.

My criminal matter at the district level is now complete. I've come to the end of Mr. Alsup. At the end of the day I can say he really was a windbag. His bark had no correlation to his bite.

At the appeals court we await if they are going to force lawyers upon us. I like our chances of continuing as we were. This ruling should be any day. After that the first order of business will be the bond. We have never had a bond or hearing so we don't know what to expect. It would be nice because the BOP dolts are trying to do all they can to impede my appeal effort. This is an unholy system of bully tactics. Even if I just wanted to lay down and do my time they would draw me into a battle. They can't help themselves because they have no respect for God or man.

The civil lawsuit will take another 3-4 months before anything meaningful happens. There is just some volleying taking place before we get to the real issues. Don't worry about this one the retards are already set up for failure on this one. This trap was so obviously laid by me I never thought they would fall for it. The good news is I get Judge Jeffrey White who is Mr. Alsup's best friend. I like to keep trouble close to Mr. Alsup. We'll soon find out about the quality of friends he keeps.

I'm being moved if the warden has his way. In an act of retaliation for my acts at Dublin they are trying to punish me. What that means at the moment is not clear. I think they would like to ship me further from my family and to a higher security. I leave this to God. I am not my own. He is in control not the BOP. Where He wants me I will be. Stay blessed and I will update you again soon.

Same Old Pattern (8-5-08)

In the book of Nehemiah one man comes under conviction to see victory for God's people. He was in a life of comfort and had no personal reason to interrupt his life except that the things of God were important to him. The walls of Jerusalem were destroyed but when he went to the word of God he saw a hope for their restoration. When I started Dorean I likewise saw a hope in God's word that the plans I saw coming of the bankers was not God's plans. This is called an opportunity for faith. Yes you can hope God will use someone else but it continues to plague you personally. Then the question comes "If not me who?" This is the place Nehemiah found himself. It was where Scott and I found ourselves. It may be where you have found yourselves from time to time. Once you've made the commitment to action then a certain familiar pattern will appear. It did for Nehemiah. It is currently for Scott and I and probably for you. I think of one named Tammy who has already shared this with us.

The pattern starts with the faith target. Then comes the displeasure of those who were content in the way things were. They never can or will see what you have seen in the faith. (Neh. 2:10) When it becomes clear to these retards they have not moved you with their displeasure they move to mockery, scorn, and ridicule. (Neh. 2:19) They really cannot help themselves because the call of God is exclusive. They know spiritually they have been ignored by God. He has no pleasure in them. It is no accident they war against God and are blind to faith's opportunity. As you continue in the work of God your enemies will have gained converts. The crowd of retards grow because birds of a feather flock together. The next step for the malcontent collective of retards is force or violence. They can't help themselves. Their frustration of not being able to stop the work of God tempts them to desperate measures. (Neh. 4:7-14) Even this fails them and God delivers. Next and what I think the most painful is intrigue. Out of your own camp comes the betrayers. (Neh. 6:1-14) Friends plot and with kind words work against God. You've seen the pattern here and probably lived it. Victory is still the end. Let the pattern din into your spirit a justified hope.

Kiss My ---! (8-03-08)

I know most of you are thinking and rightfully so. If it were my words that I was presenting here I would surely address you retards in such a fashion. But it is not my words and God has little concern with the retards. He speaks and teaches for His children's sake. So let us talk of the kiss spoken of by the Father. There was the kiss of adoration by the woman who with oil and tears anointed the feet of Jesus. Only few have come to know Jesus in this manner. These few are easily recognized and are always scorned by those who view this behavior as a waste. Those whose soul have been so vanquished by the mercies of Christ have no ability to restrain the adoration from exploding out of them. There is another kiss which is a precursor to this. This is the kiss of reconciliation. The prodigal story depicts this. A man lost in sin and debaucheries comes to his senses when thinking upon life with his Father. The Father kisses the son and lavishes love and reconciliation upon him. This is also depicted by Jacob and Esau in their reunion. There is a third kiss which is the kiss of the masses. This kiss is the most popular. This is the kiss of flattery, of betrayal, of Judas. "Greetings, Rabbi!" For all the world to see in a secret code to please the crowds men kiss up to Christ with treachery in their hearts. That is the Christianity of the retards you see practiced on this blog. They have no understanding of Christ or His ways and yet they are there with their kiss and "greetings Rabbi!" Of these Christ said it would have been better if they were never born. They commit suicide. If not in body most certainly in spirit. Now God makes it clear in Psalms 2:11 that for your own well being you "Kiss My Son!" All will kiss Him and every knee shall bow to this Son. What kiss is upon your lips? Are you like the retards who know the kiss of lip service but whose hearts are not in it or are you with fear and trembling kissing your Lord? God has decreed "Kiss My Son!" and I have chosen to with all my heart. Greet each other with this holy kiss.

Anonymous

Judge Not

I am both saddened and angered by the responses of some of you “so-called Christians” who are so critical of Kurt & Scott. Christ came to save the world, not condemn it. Christians are not to set in judgment of other Christians or anyone else. The Bible teaches us not to judge or we will be judged in like manner.

When I met Kurt in February of 2005, the Lord showed me his heart as a true believer in Christ. God confirmed to me that both Kurt and Scott were doing what God had shown them to do and God wanted me to walk with them. My meeting with Kurt confirmed what I had already learned about the fraud in the system and now here was someone commissioned by God to attack it.

When you study the Bible, you will find that all the great leaders chosen by God had to walk a hard walk. Some leaders lived a desert life for a season. Others, such as King David, were forced to hide and live in caves until their appointed time of leadership. Still others were imprisoned for preaching the truth.

I have learned much from Dorean and their light has been dimmed but not put out. History will soon confirm the Dorean story. We should all emulate them as they have publicly forgiven their enemies including the judge.


Dear Scott and Kurt,

We just want you to know that we love you and admire you for your stand ‘in’ Christ.

We understand that in all the sufferings you are going through it is ‘all’ for the Glory of God ‘in’ His only Son Jesus.

When I pray or think about what you have been through, the pain of deception and lies told, the evil ploys of men to hide their sins from the world……..it makes me ashamed. But these lies are an open book to our God.

The sufferings of this life only increase our rewards in heaven and magnify His Holiness upon the earth.

There are many people, as soon as they hear about soldiers in God’s army, when crucified by men of this world, turn their backs and begin to gossip and backbite, stomping upon the head of a fellow Christian. They say stupid stuff like: Oh! he must be out of the will of God for this to happen’ or they begin to gossip with others about ‘what they heard’ saying things like: ‘How can they be right with God and this happen to them?’ or ‘I am going to totally and completely disassociate myself from them….I do not want my name tarnished’ or ‘They must have done something wrong to be incarcerated’.

How naive Christians become when trials come. Do they not remember the scriptures how Jesus said we would be persecuted, tried/tested and lied about; as He was? Have we forgotten that Jesus warned us about the deceivers and false prophets; how the Disciples/Apostles were crucified, exiled, beaten and falsely accused for the cause of CHRIST.

Scriptures like: (All scriptures emphasized by me for clarity)

John 15:20

Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted Me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept My saying, they will keep yours also. But all these things will they do unto you for My name’s sake, because they know not Him that sent Me.

Matthew 10:19-22

But when they deliver you up, take no thought how or what you shall speak: for it shall be given you in that same hour what you shall speak. For it is not you that speaks, but the Spirit of your Father which speaks in you. And the brother shall deliver up the brother to death, and the father the child: and the children shall rise up against their parents, and cause them to be put to death. And you shall be hated of all men for My name’s sake: but he that endues to the end shall be saved.

I am amazed at how quickly we forget the Word when our Christian brothers and sisters are crucified for Christ…..so many act like ostriches, which bury their heads in the sand….God will have no wimps in His army!

Back in 2001 the Lord told me of seven (7) sins that were raging in the church; He also gave me (7) promises if the ‘church’ would repent and come back to their ‘first Love’. Listen to His words:
A WORD FROM THE HEART OF GOD-2001

My desire, says the Lord, is to fellowship with you. But there must be a cleansing of the temple. The abominations must be exposed; 1) gossiping, 2) backbiting, 3) double mindedness, 4) slothfulness, 5) envy, 6) strife, 7) high-mindedness.

My house must once again become a House of Prayer. 1) Humble yourself before me and I, your Lord, will show you things to come. 2) Put away idle things that come between us. Talk to Me and I will answer. 3) Stay with Me and I will reveal Myself to you. 4) Set yourself apart and I will do mighty works through you.

5) Weep upon the altars and souls will be born into the Kingdom. 6) Worship Me and I will come and heal you, your church and your land. For in My presence all things consist and exist. I am the I AM, there is none like Me, 7) Worship Me and My presence will come and we will fellowship together once again.

GOD forgive us is my prayer!

Why do we allow the enemy to blind our mind and eyes when trouble comes? Why do we immediately assume ‘the Christian brother/sister’ is the one in the wrong? Why do we tear down our brothers/sisters instead of lifting them up? Why is it soooo easy to forget the Word of God that tells us what to do when one is in trouble.....Jesus being our supreme example?.....we are to LOVE them and PRAY for them:

John 13:5-12-15

After that He poured water into a basin, and began to wash the disciples’ feet, and to wipe them with the towel wherewith He was girded……So after He had washed their feet, and had taken His garments, and was set down again, He said unto the, ‘Know you what I have done to you? You call Me Master and Lord; and you say well; for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; you also ought to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you ‘an example’, that you should do as I have done to you….

John 17:9

I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which You have given Me; for they are Thine. And all Mine are Thine, and Thine are Mine; and I am glorified in them.

Ephesians 4:1-6

….you walk worthy of the vocation wherewith you are called, with all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in LOVE; endeavoring to keep the ‘unity’ of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body, and one Spirit, even as you are called in one hope of your calling; One Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

Ephesians 6:18

Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for ALL saints.

James 5:13

Is any among you afflicted? Let him pray. Is any merry? Let him sing psalms. Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: and the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he has committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.

Acts 12:5

Peter therefore was kept in prison: but prayer was made without ceasing of the church unto GOD for him.

There is so much more I could say, so many more scriptures I could give, but I think you get the message…..we are to ‘lift up’ our brothers and sisters not ‘go along with the crowd, stomping on them, gossiping, and crucifying them. We are to ‘listen’ to the Holy Spirit who will teach us what to say in that hour of persecution.

You want to hear of some other people/Christians that were put in jail, beaten, crucified for Christ sake: let us see if their being incarcerated brought glory to God:

1) Peter: thrown in jail….for the Gospel (Acts 12:1-17)

Results: Prayer brought Peter out supernaturally, increasing faith in believers.

2) Paul and Silas, beaten and thrown in jail.....for the Gospel (Acts 16:22-34)

Results: Jailer and all his family were saved and baptized; he also washed their wounds and fed them in his own home.

PS: Kurt/Scott: this verse is prophesized for you; be encouraged:

Acts 12:39:

And the keeper of the prison told this saying to Paul, the magistrates have sent to let you go: now therefore depart, and go in peace. But Paul said unto them, They have beaten us openly uncondemned, being Romans, and have cast us into prison; and now do they thrust us out privily? Nay verily; but let them come themselves and fetch us out…….and they feared….and they came and besought them, and brought them out……

3) Steven stoned to death…..for the Gospel (Acts 7:48-60)

Results: Steven did three things: 1) Vision: saw Jesus ‘standing’ (not sitting) on the right hand of God. 2) Showed love of God by praying for their souls, 3) Saw truth; Jesus never leaves you nor forsakes you.

4) Job stripped of everything….what was his sin? He worshipped GOD (Job 1:12-22,2:7-10)
Results: (Job 42:10-16) – the Lord gave Job twice as much as he had before; for all to see God’s amazing grace.

5) John exiled to the Isle of Patmos…..for preaching the Gospel (Rev 1:9)

Results: the Book of Revelation was written by the Holy Spirit through John for all to know the future of believers and non-believers…..what a love letter to us all.

6) John the Baptist……beheaded…..for preaching Truth (Mk 6:22-28)

Results: Souls are still being saved today because of his obedience.

7) Today: David and Linda, warriors in the faith, 18 years ago left their home and church in Brooklyn, NY to minister the gospel of Y’shua to the Jews in Israel. They have undergone severe persecution paralleling the ordeals of the early Christian church. David has had his back opened up many times from beatings; they have suffered threats and intimidation. Yet the gospel continues to go forward. (This is an excerpt from the website http://www.allaboutfollowingjesus.org.)

Results: Many converts including Jews and Arabs and Gentiles.

8) Today: Scott and Kurt, warriors in the faith, whom God has anointed to speak and reveal truth and deception; are bearing afflictions for the gospel of Christ. The FBI, who are not part of the United States of America Government, stormed into their establishment, guns drawn, threatening, and illegally took documents and emptied their checking account; They have been taken from their families and illegally incarcerated; transferring them from pillar to post to keep them from communicating with friends and family, etc.

Results: Many people will hear the Truth and it will set them free from debts they did not owe. People will learn the truth and bondages will be released so the kingdom work will increase and the glory of God will shine again across this nation and the whole world.

In the scripture the Lord tells us we must be willing to give up everything for Him. After what He did for us, I do not think that is asking too much, besides He is the One who owns everything on earth, under the earth and above the earth…..He created it all for His Glory.

Luke 14:26

“If any man come to me, and hate not his father and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he can not be My disciple. And whosoever does not bear his cross, and ‘come after’ Me, cannot be My disciple. (We are to pursue HIM!)

Several prophetic visions and Words have been shown to me throughout the years revealing this time. This generation will see greater things in God’s kingdom as He builds an impregnable army…..this army will have NO FEAR….but will be full of FAITH, POWER and AUTHORITY. Youth need ‘strong’ mentors…..people like you, Kurt and Scott…..people willing to stand for Truth and Holiness….people willing to step out of the norm and be radical for Christ; who was the greatest radical of all. (Below are excerpts from other prophetic words)
2002

I want to prepare you for battle, says the Lord. I will raise up an army, an army no man or demon of hell can stop. Another time He told me Do not to be concerned about the numbers because He was going to tear down what man built and build it back His way; where the gates of hell would not prevail.

Youth fear nothing but I will turn that to MY good. As the enemy comes in to hinder they will lift up the ‘SWORD’ for battle and run, run into it, believing ME to fight for them: ’The battle is MINE’, says the LORD, The Sword is raised and Victory is theirs!

Victory is in ME, I am the BEGINNING and the END. I AM ALPHA and OMEGA. I am, the I AM! Creation is mine, you are mine, now see MY SALVATION. See MY GLORY, See MY TRUTH!

They are strong and fearless and your faithfulness will usher in this stampede of Youth; This Army that CAN NOT be stopped…..‘FEAR NOT’..…They will hear, They will listen, They will March.

satan will be exposed in their eyes, and his chains will fall like dust to the ground.

January 16 2005

There are no wimps in this army. This army will be strong, pure and full of God’s righteousness…….this army is the Bride of Christ! (Prophetic Word) This army will be made up of the poor, maimed, torn, broken, and weak. This army will go in My Power, says the Lord, This army will heed My call. This army will listen to My voice. This army will march into the enemy’s camp without fear knowing…knowing who walks before them. For I the Lord am leading them. This army will not be turned by doubt or fear, for I am putting in them boldness, the same boldness I gave My servant Peter. The same anointing, the same mantle will cover them as covered the apostles and prophets of old.

Blessings will follow them, miracles will follow them. No mountain will be to high to climb…no valley to deep to go through. For they will be holding to My unchanging hand.

I am arming them….I am equipping them. They will march…they will follow…they will be victorious…climbing…climbing ever higher to see Me…

You see this will be My Bride…My Passionate Bride…My Bride without spot or wrinkle…My Bride pure and holy. My Bride who has prepared herself, adoring herself in pure white garments. Waiting…watching…longing for My appearing…the appearing of the promised Bridegroom.

About three years ago the Lord showed me something else; I have told very few about. He showed me this vision:
People ‘around’ the world ‘arm locked’, not hand in hand, but arm locked around the whole world. They were all in one accord, with one purpose and goal. They were in ‘perfect’ harmony worshipping and lifting Jesus higher and higher. At that time He will step out and call His Bride home.

Awesome! Can you see it? All are in one accord with one purpose and goal acclimating God and adoring Jesus. Totally surrendered in total worship to the Lamb of God, at the same time, will cause the Father to say ‘Go get Your children and bring them home.’ The scripture Jude 24 will be accomplished:

To Him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy. To God our Savior, who alone is wise, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and forever. Amen
I pray this word encourages the both of you, for you have been obedient and God honors that and He will fight for you, He is standing in the gap for you today and everyday. Keep the faith as I know you both will knowing we stand our watch upon the wall, our swords drawn and our shield of faith raised on your behalf, guarding you against the enemy. I believe JESUS is about to radically, supernaturally invade the situation and we are all going to see a miraculous deliverance…………all will see JESUS high and lifted up.

John wrote this about Jesus: ……….we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. (I John 2:1) and (I believe this can be applied to all immoralities) that no one should take advantage of and defraud his brother in this matter, because the Lord is the Avenger of all such, as we also forewarned you and testified. For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in holiness. Therefore he who rejects this does not reject man, but God, who has also given us His Holy Spirit.
(I Thessalonians 4:6)

You are not alone, as ‘ol slu foot’ would have you believe; for as God showed the prophet Elijah when he thought he was alone (I Kings, chapter 19) that 7000 had not bowed…..Scott/Kurt I dare say that there are that many standing with you both.

May God’s overflowing strength and grace encourage you both everyday in everyway, granting you wisdom and direction to finish this part of your journey.

We love you both

A Moment for Miracles (8-2-08)

Son of David have mercy on me
my heart cries out in need
Do you hear me do you see me
I wonder in my corporeal cares
You are the King of Spirits
and creator of all things flesh
Will I find any comfort here
or must I wait for the day of rest
Heaven is a state of mind its been said
yet how can this be true
For you walk and talk among men
and do the things we do
What is this new creation
where flesh is somehow perfected
How is it that nature is redeemed
not irrelevant or neglected
Are there not early flowers
that bloom before the Sun is at full strength
Are there not miracles to greet us
before we've run full length
For this I call out oh Holy One
to visit me in my time
and give me just one small taste
of that glorious, sweet new wine
To hell with those who wish to silence me
for you are acquainted with my sorrows
and I will cry out all the more
for the now, like there are no tomorrows
Son of David have mercy on me
my heart cries out in need
and grant me the faith to catch your eye
just a little, like a mustard seed.

A Thousand Deaths and Still Dying (8-1-08)

As I mentioned in the past Christ was a man of sorrows and of course death. It was a unique death in that inherent within was the principle of vicariousness. It was not a natural death in one sense and in another the only natural death. It was not His death but one chosen by Him. He defies nature in her natural course to superimpose upon her a higher part of her nature. Nature displays the vicariousness which is within her but now reflects the very character of her King. He imposes His will and truth not as a foreigner but as a sovereign. Nature embraces this death, incorporates it, and follows God's lead. None of us is unique in the natural and yet all unique in the spirit. Each of our bodies possess elements that were once a virus, cow, thief, prince or King. So in this sense nature has us all so interlinked and dependent that vicariousness would be natural. In the spirit nature fails us because of the sheer independence of a man alone before his God. This is why Christ had to do what he did. This is also where the fraud of the retards is exposed. They defy death. It is evil in their eyes. They are so selfish they cannot get the logs out of their eyes. I talk of the thousand deaths I've had to incur during this Dorean mission and I am evil. They can't comprehend the ways of Christ which lead to an abundant life through death. Think of all within you that had to die over these 3+ years while you had to wait upon the Lord. Vicariousness is love. All the commands are summed up in this love. Christ while we were yet sinners dove down into the muck and mire of this bog and in the total darkness grabbed the sunken prize only to reverse the fall and raise us again into the fresh air of life where there is color and light. Why does it surprise you that He calls others in His body to the same work? Have you not been asked to die to self and live for Him a thousand different ways? Are you still not dying? Let's not mock His ways and patiently wait for His resurrection life to break forth like the new day. He is still killing "me" softly. How about you?

Upward Mobility (8-1-08)

Well it appears I am continuing to be punished for what I did at Dublin. Safford either got spooked by my actions or in an act of solidarity for their friends at Dublin they are taking another swing at punishment. Once I was served with the lawsuit CV-08 2325 JSW in which the government sues to remove some UCC financing statements that were placed upon various federal actors, the actions against me ensued. I have not been sanctioned for any violation within the BOP or violations of law. The accusation in the suit is that of violations of Mail fraud again. The suit troubles me none. On its face it is very flawed. I will let them discover this along the way. If you want to learn how to throw off the 1000 lb. gorilla you will want to watch the paperwork in this case. Safford has requested I be moved to a higher security prison. It is up to region to grant or deny this request. Since I have no friends at region I expect it to be granted. That means I'm in the SHU for the next few weeks and then the special in house travel. I probably won't be settled into my default housing unit until middle of November. This is causing delays in the plans I have for you but God willing I will get the job done. Your prayers here will be appreciated.

We are still awaiting the appeals court ruling if we can avoid counsel. After this ruling our bond motion will be heard. I am still very diligent about the work before me. "No worries" a friend of mine used to say. I am still separated from my legal work which has my Phase One blog included therein. If I don't get it soon enough I will rewrite it to let you know what kind of pay-out to expect. Those of you faithful I hope you are seeking the Lord how we can continue to work together doing His work. The rest will take their blessing and like the 9 lepers not return any thanks. Don't be like them. Let all the world know what great things the Lord has done. Expect changes as I move up in the world.

Chosen (7/26/08)

The Bible is replete with the theme of the chosen. We follow it through Seth to Shem to Abraham the father of many nations. Mary of all women gets to be the womb of the Chosen One. In Luke she burst out in song and rightfully so. What unspeakable joy to come to the comprehension of the historical significance of this selection. But something else came along riding shotgun as it were. A sword will pierce your very soul. Jesus Himself the ultimate in God's selection had to be the preeminence, the one cherished and adored above all. The Palm Sunday (Sat) Hosannas being what should always take place. But no we have a man of sorrow. How do we reconcile the songs and the sufferings. In Abraham all the nations of the world are blessed. In Christ every creature and nature herself have the promise of renewal. Ephesians 1:4 has the word "chosen" in context. The text makes it clear how blessed a state it is to be one of the chosen. Of course you cannot have selection without the concomitant deselection. The equality and fairness doctrines of our creaturely morals not getting a vote. Many of us feel blessed after discovery of our calling. We likewise burst out in song, but do we really understand the joy of this calling. I say not until the sword pierces thy very soul and you are acquainted with sorrows.

Now to the few of you who are serious about your faith pay attention and let the spirit do its work. This truth is one of the dividing lines between the Neo's and the Scott's of Vineland and the chosen. Many are called but few are chosen. Can you embrace the sorrows. We know how many have cried out in their pain (real) away with that man. How they ridicule and mock me with their platitudes of Scripture and their Christ of convenience. Some even make the shallow (very) promise that if everything works out I'll return as a cheerleader. Faith (real) doesn't work like this. It knows of the sorrows. It knows the ways of God. It sees the promise afar off before the eyes can see it. Abraham knew of his blessing all the nations of the world and he knew Isaac was part of this. It was the only thing that could give him the strength that could survive the torque of his wrenching heart as he rose the knife. This faith is not crushed by the gravity of a self-absorbed universe. Its prayers are far past the infantile "me, me, what about me?" You see it in the comments here as well as the whole of your existence. From the loft of comfort they condemn you in your suffering or in their suffering they blame and cry. If they believe they know God their me prayers and curses come rolling off their lips. We are not like them. Yes our heart is wrenching and our tears just as salty but God is doing a work. He is getting acquainted with us and we are getting acquainted with this man of sorrows.

When I founded Dorean with Scott there was a song in our hearts. God had chosen us to do a good and noble work. It had its joy and its ease. I could even see how it would help many. It wasn't really until the suffering came that I realized this was the small picture. It wasn't until I saw the protracted suffering of the clients that I understood the true majesty of God's plan in Dorean Let me use the parallel story of Gideon. The first selection of God netted an army of 32,000. The second a troupe of 10,000. The third a band of 300. Logically to the human mind the more the merrier but God had not committed Himself with them. (Jn. 2:24) It was this band the few, this group of earthen vessels that the light of glory would enter the world. (Jn. 3:19-21) At first this light is concealed by the earthen vessel but it is still there doing its work. Patience and obedience are being taught while the vessel is getting acquainted with the light.

This is central to Christianity. There is a price to pay, a cross to bear, a death that must occur. "Christ shed tears at the grave of Lazarus and sweated blood in Gethsemane : the Life of Lives that was in Him detested this penal obscenity not less than we do but more. On the other hand, only he who loses his life will save it." (C.S. Lewis) Being chosen is on the backside of death. Many are called. Many get their songs of joy, wonder, and awe. But like the sons in the prodigal story one undeserving has great appreciation for the fatted calf (sacrifice / suffering) and one considers it a waste. The sifting of those who are going to cross that divide is coming to an end. The shofar is going to blow and the decree that the earthen vessel acquainted with the light be broken. And with a shout the light of this world will burst onto the scene. The enemies will see the light as the forefront of an unseen army of irresistible force and the Rahabs of the world will see the bright shining of their hope breaking forth like the new day calling them to be grafted into the very blood line of the Lord. The vessel must be broken. The sorrows must complete their work. The wall will fall. Like John the Baptist said "I must decrease and He must increase." There is a new song even greater than the first that arrives the moment you see that through your suffering Christ Himself has been set up like a city on a hill you shall have it no other way. I have sweat my blood and cried my tears but now for the glory set before me I have but joy. If you are there with me, if you are part of this small band let us harmonize our songs and sing Glory, Honor and Praise to Christ the Man of sorrows, glory in the highest! How sweet it is to be chosen! Is it not true the seed must die before the harvest? The harvest is great but the workers are few. Now the Lord of the Harvest speaks - this word of prophecy to you:

"The time is coming swiftly and is yet here that the lovers of themselves and the haters of God will beat on your door with contempt like they did in Sodom. But the light that you have been chosen to display will radiate and penetrate their intentions. My glory shall blind them and they shall stumble upon themselves. But you shall no longer dwell in the valleys I am taking you to the mountains. Don't look back there will be nothing left behind. I have come into the world to bless and bless I will. You are my chosen vessel acquainted with suffering. When I send you out among the hurting the downcast you shall not be a fraud. It is my pleasure to shine through you and for that pleasure you have been chosen. You do not yet see how many you will reach or the extent of that reach but my harvest is white and ready for you. Before I come this door I lay open before you and no man can shut it. I will take your little faith and I will pray to the Father to multiply it past the need to abundance. I speak now of economics and of my gifts. Whatever need presents itself to the broken vessel will see my glories shine forth. It is no accident I have taken you this course. Your cries I have heard but others are still crying. I have work to be done. Put away the tears there is gladness for morning. Full to the brim were my vessels in Cana now I command you "draw out" my supply shall never run short. Like muted trumpets at a distance will I make the voices that have ridiculed you. With envy they look upon you but I will not entrust myself to them. Go now with open hands and I will send to you my Rahabs. They will seek you out because your testimony of me is true, it is honest. Remember how at the beginning you thought this was about you? Laugh with me now! Oh how I have loved you and oh how I love the hurting : Feed my sheep! Obey and even your enemies will deliver my blessings to you. You have been faithful in little now be faithful in much. Remain broken for I am the only one who can sanctify a band of crackpots. I will develop a unity between you and together you shall do more than apart. Know that my hour has come strap your shoes on and be ready your redemption has been sent."

This blesses me to which I say "AMEN!" I have put away my tears the hope that is before me consumes me. The little left to do is no burden at all. I delight in God's plan. All my love; faithful.