Where is God? 2-6-11

Unfortunately for this nation this question is not being asked. Like Israel in Jeremiah chapter 2 we have whored ourselves out to every seduction available. Imagine how few generations are included in our short 200 years history. So quickly the children have lost the revelation that this nation appeared on the scene as a divine appointment and revelation very much like the Israelites exodus from Egypt

Where is God? Is He someone we call on when an enemy kills 3000 in a tower’s destruction? For days, weeks, or months He becomes our chant or bumper sticker. Forgotten again soon enough, the world hates God and always will. They hate the fact that tragedy can make them aware of their feebleness and that they have a reflex to call to God out of their fears. As soon as they calm themselves that reflex will be dismissed as an emotional vain imagination.

But we are not like the world, for we know the answer to this question and ask it for very different reasons. We desire to know the answer for affections sake. Our question resembles more “Where is my darling?” I long for their presence; we are comforted by the answer found in Eph. 2 13-22. He is near! Regrettable this nation has been lost to her lust. Like the wild ass in heat sniffing the air trying to find the first available mate. America is known now as the cheap whore without virtue. Within her borders though is a remnant, a small few, who are near to God, who are being built up for a kingdom not of this world? Fortunately for this nation’s sake God has prophesied her restoration to sense. She will be led back to God by the few who are near to God. Not through tragedy but by our love example. So when you here the question “where is God?” Boldly proclaim your answer that His love has taught you “He is Near!”

I Don’t Want…… 2-5-11

I must admit over the years of this blog I have portrayed certain desires, but with the help of a simple book sent to me by an anonymous source I think it’s come time to change my course. I thought I would take you through all the things I don’t want. Perhaps this will make it abundantly clear to those who still follow this blog what my intentions are.

I do not want to pay all the clients back their Dorean fees. Neither do I want to assist them in obtaining a victory over the banks/lenders who plundered them. I don’t want a good marriage. I don’t want Judge Alsup to repent of his wickedness. I don’t want him to come to the knowledge of Jesus Christ. I don’t want a relationship with my children who have forsaken me. I do not want to get out of prison. I do not want to see God’s prophetic word fulfilled in my life. That means I do not want to bless the people of God with money. I do not want to have a marriage counseling ministry; I do not want the wisdom and knowledge He promised to give. I don’t even want for good friends as I languish forgotten. No matter how I look at my circumstance I don’t want the ability to overcome them and reach victory. All I want is to be left alone. I don’t want joy, peace, or love. I want the feds to be my source. Let my healings come by their physicians because that is what I want. I don’t want God’s healing; In fact I don’t want anything from God. I am done wanting, my spirit is broken. No longer will I live in want. If you are disappointed by what you read and want me to want what you want then I must refuse you. I will not share in any of your wants.

To understand what I’m saying and have always said, go back and reread this blog exchanging the word ”want” or “wanting” with lack or lacking. This is how faith works. And it always works; it calls those things which are not yet as though they are. The Lord said I shall not want. The imperative command I will heed. My cup runnath over Psalms 23.

NEVER I’M SORRY 1-19-11

My entrance into the SHU began a couple of weeks before I arrived. Someone at region read a couple emails of me requesting some fantasy football stats. He called to this institution investigative branch to put me in the SHU for running a gambling operation. When they looked into it they discovered it was just a game.

Not satisfied by this result region looked at another email where I was helping someone buy $60.00 worth of gun parts. The inflamed accusation this time was I’m working with Muslim terrorist in weapons acquisition. As they looked into both our backgrounds and saw that was impossible then it morphed into Montana Freeman working with the Cripps. All said and done the facts ferreted out to be a gentleman needing some outside assistance to buy some gun parts he was looking to improve upon to patent ask me to help and I attempted to. Now that region’s retaliation and fables have been exposed and we were sent to the SHU without provocation instead of getting an “I’m sorry” we’re told we might have to take a shot to make this go away. A shot is a disciplinary act for violation a policy. A 100 series is most severe and stays on your record for 10 years. A 200 series stays on your record for 2 years and a 300 series on your record for a year. This is the series they want me to take even though it is factually false. This is why I hate this government because some asshole abuses his power by un compensation of property or time all the rest instead of sanctioning the offender and apologizing find some method of accusation to put you on the defense and impaired from bringing attention to the real crime. Our indictment was the same tactic. If this government continues in this same unrepentant spirit I shall be its enemy for life. God opposes such fraud and I am honored to be called to this battle at any time. As this Lord has already turned this battle into a victory He will do the same with Dorean. More on this later don’t want that retard at region too informed of the mass he started.

MEANDERING 1-19-11

The Christian soldier is not boss of himself. One of the reasons I recommend a regular regiment of fasting is that it keeps you turned for battle. What I’ve discovered in the service of the Lord is that it is good to be prepared because one day you are meandering through life and the next moment you are in battle. This is where most people panic but it should not be the case with the saint. Battles are a joy once you see them as God does.

Your first assurance is that the battle is the Lord’s He brought you to battle and the battle to you. It is a high honor. Victory is never in question and your fears are never justified. Dorean was merely Scott and I meandering through life executing upon the knowledge we were give. Suddenly we were at the apex of battle. To the moment it even appears we are getting our asses whipped. But any who know the Lord never allow their doubts to give way to such appearances. God is far more cleverer actually His battle pattern is to set a hook in the enemies mouth so they peruse you and bring their booty with them. They always arrive arrogant and at the height of confidence like they will spoil you. Even this trip to the SHU was instigated by an old enemy who is still reeling from the pains of our last battle. He brought me a prize I didn’t see coming as I was meandering, but each battle brings hidden trophies that the Lord delivers to His children. Be bold and courageous, winning really is fun!

DUAL NATURED 1-18-11

Paul spoke well of the warring of the flesh with the spirit inside a man. It is amazing to me how deeply rooted my carnal nature is in evil and for a spirit made alive in Christ how it can soar to the heavens. Being now upon my 30th day on this water only fast the voices of my flesh is adamant and boisterous. The wickedness is far more subtle than perversity of lust, hatred, greed or conniving. Even food is not fueling a raging hunger. No the battle is all in the mind. My mind’s imagination is on a rapid fire and on constant.

Whether cooking, law, work, Dorean battles, marriage, relationships, hopes, disappointments, or just plain minutia the truth of it all is to distract from my thoughts being upon the Lord. Isn’t this the purest form of wickedness? How many “good” people have led an entire life without any grand displays of wickedness except their spirit never pondered the Lord. I battle with my spirit against this selfish ignoble flesh by praying by spirit. After a season the mind comes along and joins and I am liberated for the moment. The other tactic I use is to sing and worship. Somehow entering His courts with praise and thanksgiving serves the selfish root and the spirit soars. If you are like me perhaps these methods will help you. Do not neglect to fast for the battles of practice will yield victories when it counts. Training is good for every soldier.

MISSING WISDOM

The older I get in the Lord the more the simple things confound me. This institution is treating my fast as a hunger strike. The only similarity is the restraint of food intake. Though they know I am practicing my Christian faith without political agenda they have no policy for fasting so I am punished inappropriately. It seems obvious to me that policies are written for general guidance when the correct set of contemplated fasts appears. They can never have the advantage over human reason to adapt to an unforeseen set of facts. Yet within our government this is precisely how it functions. What confounds me in this situation is how quickly society changes. When I was a boy those who showed reverence and devotion to God were respected. They were looked to as a measure of righteousness, Wisdom, and integrity. Now nothing but perverts of truth holds positions of trust. Their wisdom is foolishness; there kindness is hatred; and their benevolence criminal. I am in a dry observation cell because they are looking out for me. (health and safety) I have to beg for water I would provide myself in a regular cell. I take showers now Monday, Wednesday and Friday instead of everyday in a regular cell. My skin dries out but I can’t have lotion because on a hunger stride you are punished. Now they want to take my blood to look out for me. The hypocrisy is evident. So I told them you may keep my lotion I’ll keep my blood. If you’ve ever heard the phrase “I’m from the government I’m here to help” you understand the sarcasm. Love cannot be faked. Any service offered outside of love will effectually` offend and cause pain when will wisdom return?

God’s Promises 12-15-10

I have been given the opportunity to read the book of Josher again. The text covering the same content as the Pentateuch, what I enjoy of this book is the details that add humanity to our biblical patriarchs. An example; Esau had just killed Nimrod and was in fear of his life when he sold his birthright to Jacob. This added fact filling in the course of human behavior. What touched me the most and I hope is transferable to you, is the response of Abraham’s family. Many times they found themselves in circumstance that at first look put the promises of God concerning them in peril. Yet at every time they prayed the promises back to God and He heard their prayers for deliverance. History has confirmed God was always faithful to His promises. Now we are more knowledgeable than they. We have had God’s own incarnate appearing and resurrection to confirm His love. Yet we flounder in mistrust unable to even rise to the courage of the patriarchs of the patriarchs. Shame on us.

Scott and I have put on display what God requires of us all. Not as a boast personally but as an appropriate response to a perfect love. We laid down our lives no matter the cost for the promise of the Lord. Can a perfect love which is a life giving spirit be trusted with loss, of course!

Joseph in his book goes to prison but with added detail you see angels of the Lord and other miraculous events steering him there. Human logic makes no sense of God’s ways but the heart that trust His love journeys in joy and peace. Tears come but the heart is not moved. Are you so certain you were a dupe or is God enough for a friend to perhaps be up to a happy ending? What do the promises say over your life? I would trust the as the patriarch did and you will discover the same results.

Westside Story 12-15-10

In England they used to have a soap opera called the East Enders. The show focusing on the seedy part of London, human nature and human wisdom has mankind functioning like East Enders. Their thoughts always on the east, the sun rises in the east and men only want to judge a thing by its beginning. They seem to forget that the sun also sets in the west. Rarely do we ponder the setting of our lives, our mortality. The habit of judging by first look and first impressions permeates East Enders.

I feel like most have used east ender logic to deduce Dorean and the facts. They are certain by the way it began that they know its substance. I hope that they way it sets shock all you East Enders. I think England suffered from east enders ignorance when dealing with the colonies of the west. God encourages us to look at the full measure of a thing to count the cost. Further His promise that may appear upon the eastern horizon always focuses our faith toward the west and how they will set into reality. The course of hope and the circuit the promise rides to its accomplishment steers our hearts away from just the beginning. Christ was proclaimed by a star in the east but that was hardly the complete story. If those Wiseman did not travel west to see Christ Himself how could they have judged rightly?

Dorean has a finish that cannot be known by its beginning. If you have refused to travel with the wisdom of God the finish will surprise you. Only a vigilant ear and a keen eye working in unison with a supple spirit discovers God’s wisdom confirmed in the west end of a thing. East Enders has long since turned their backs to the west and never sees truth until it hits them in the back of their head.


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Jupiter 1-13-11

Jupiter is the largest planet in our solar system. Because its orbit is outside ours it's gravity serves a very useful purpose. It bends space enough to attract the majority of all meteors and asteroids. It is like a giant vacuum cleaner protecting us from harmful debris. In our battle the federal government served the same purpose. Its gravity prevented all the other states from being relevant. The bad side is they are more wicked than all the others combined. The good side is defeating the words is the best victory. So since God established the players and the battlefront we find ourselves pleased to enter the Frey. Was it not God who put Jupiter in its place?

This set of events could change down the road soon for the next battle. The Supreme Court is ruling on a federalism case called Bond in February. The essence being that the 10th amendment is an individual right to choose the jurisdiction you to face. Meaning Scott and I could have chosen Utah and the feds would become irrelevant. They haven't touched this subject for a century so let's hope they reduce the reach of this over bloated tyrant. Do you think they have cross the line of their design in the last century? To me by a million miles, this would be the first reverse and not very far backwards. But it’s a direction change and I think the spirit of the Lord is for it. In the heavens Jupiter's days are numbered. May it be so on earth as it is in heaven. Amen!

The Irreverent Heart 1-9-11

When I think upon the injustice I’m suffering, the fraud perpetrated upon you by the bank and coddled by our government, I can’t blame it on bad laws, sorcery, or wicked avarice in our institutions. It all comes down to the irreverent heart. No doubt we now live under a tyranny but that didn’t happen over night. We courted them as our promises when we departed reverence God surely founded this nation as with all but some are founded under the canopy of blessing and others under providence. We were founded under blessing. Meaning that if we could keep our hearts reverent all our institutions would follow suit. To run a tyranny all love must be absent tyranny can only operate with misanthropy. Which is the perfect reflection of our irreverent hearts, we are full of hatred. First toward God, ourselves, and then others, our executive judiciary, congress, police powers, and juries all feed upon the greed of power and the flesh of others. No vote will change it because you cannot change a heart condition by a vote.

God putting this fast on front-street really spoke straight to the heart condition. If in one little call He is speaking how much more is His witness of rebuttal to irreverent going out? God will heal our land but it will start with our hearts. Can we view Him reverently as our only hope? If so that is a real hope that will not disappoint. Until then we must suffer our heart attack.

Regret 1-8-11

The human emotion of regret plays a funny role in the psyche of the Christian man. Should I regret having started the Dorean Group? Do I regret the partner or employees or brokers I ended up with? Should I have got lawyers involved, not defended myself, taken a deal, or not started Dorean at all? Regret dances in and out of your consciousness looking for some branch of doubt upon which to roost. The Christian man should not be subject to regrets if his faith is mature. Taking God at His word that the footsteps of the righteous are ordered of the Lord Jesus no room for regret, even though the hardest for me is not that I was guided into all the choices I made but that my friend suffers. But there is a fallacy in this thought also. For surely the God guiding me is the same guiding him. Can I transfer the knowledge of God’s great care for me as not individual solely but also for every part of His body including my brother? The only reasonable thought is to know God is constant in His faithfulness to all His children, so though I may desire to see the suffering of those I love to cease I cannot harbor a regret I delight and trust that the love of God will finish the work it has started and care for His own through all the trials and suffering along the journey. If you have any regrets about your involvement with Dorean you have a lot to learn about the Lord.

Slander’s Balm 1-8-11

A man may face many a slanders in his day. It is a fact of the human heart that it is loveless. The soul even hates itself. When a man’s soul s in this loveless state he cares not about the assaults of others even though there is a substance of truth found in them. When a man’s soul has been made alive in the love of Christ and is no longer loveless seems to be when the world takes more offense and slander increases. Though God has changed the man in such a way that the slanders are wholly false they increase. No longer having a loveless soul the slanders sting a bit because love cares for truth and for others, but there remains a consolation for a man as myself buried and imprisoned by lies of slander. That is that the one true witness who loved enough to change his heart gives a good report. Love does seek to give a good report if possible but will not overlook evil just to flatter. No, love is inoperable without truth. I do feel the wounds of all the slander and bear them heavily in my flesh. But love is the perfect balm to overcome such wickedness. My wish for all my enemies is no recompense but that the perfect balm is Christ’s love should reach their loveless hearts.

Legal Update 1-8-11

My legal options have been reduced to a 2255 which is a statutory habeas and to a writ of cert on a solitary issue. The cert is due by Feb 1st. but because of my SHU experience and a couple of cases that can effect my question I have requested an extension of time to file. The most interesting case if front of me is one called Bond that should be ruled upon late Feb in the Supreme Court. This is a federalism case, a subject not addressed in a hundred years. The gist of which is that under the 10th amendment I had a right to select which jurisdiction. I wanted to be prosecuted under, Utah or the Feds. I was not the government’s choice. We shall see how the ruling comes down. This case also talks of the vagueness issue written into most federal statutes so they can easily violate the constitution. Another case about to arrive there out of the 7th circuit is one called Krieger, This deals with elements of the offense and statutory construction. Little by little all the offenses practiced upon us by judge Alsup are being address.

Psalms 91 1-7-11

Psalms 91 has been a personal blessing to millions of believers through countless generations from the day it was penned. The words comforting every troubled spirit who looks to God as their help. No doubt this is the intended interpretation but upon my reading I discovered an alternate that touched me as richly but in a different kind of assurance. I saw verses 1-13 being spoken not to me but to Christ alone. These may be why the devil used these verses the way he did during the temptation. Then verse 14-16 I saw as Christ speaking to me.

The comfort I gained from this interpretation was I have knowledge that all those promises are fulfilled in Christ. The love of the father and provision to the son speaks to their character and relationship. The son is obviously precious in the sight of the Lord. His status of beloved is now made as an offer from Him to us to close the psalm. I do not need psalm 91 to be a personal promise as it were to reap all the benefits. For what Christ obtained He freely offers, the promise seemed to take on more potency for me when I saw them as Christ's possessions and given to me through Him.

Supernatural Normalcy 1-7-11

I’m currently on my 19th day of a 40 day fast. The Lord has already taught me a valuable lesson. This fast was scheduled to begin on Jan 2, but do to a phony accusation I was sent to the SHU on Dec 20th. Commonsense would have extinguished the accusation in the real world but in federally land folly gets its full exercise. Still this was the hank of the Lord, I began my fast when I entered the SHU, at prior prisons I stayed in my cell until the fast was over. There was the normal cooperation with medical. This prison however took to over reaction and paced me in an observation tank. The lights never go off and there are no facilities just a cement bed in the middle of the room. I get water by cup through the door and piss into plastic urinals. Fortunately bowl movements are a thing of the past. One does not prefer to be on Front Street when they fast. There are a couple of things I could do to avoid this and still fast. Some suggested by the staff. When I spoke to the Lord about them that's when I got some revelation. Fraud is such a part of the federal regime that I do not have the liberty to practice it, with the fast. The extra suffering caused by truth is just paid as a matter of course. That is the Christian life. God took me to the first 5 chapters of Daniel and said to me, He was using this front-street fast to place reverence before the irreverent. That was refreshing news and gave me some strength. Frankly that purpose alone was greater than my purpose for fasting. So in the normal course of a Christian man's life supernatural happens upon him. I'm reminded of Paul in Acts 28 who got shipwrecked and was merely stoking a fire when he got bit by a viper. The islanders got a supernatural display that stoked their spiritual fervor in the normalcy of Paul's life. The Christian live is so supernatural as a fact that amazing events of God's work just arrives. If you are one who fervently prays for the power of God to appear in your life, relax! It already has. Just walk you walk and God will magnify His name It may e a viper or some other unpleasantly like doing you fast in a dry windowed cell but suddenly and in an instant you are God's instrument
That is a blessed state, something to ponder.

Writ of Cert 11/22/10

The Supreme Court is a discretionary court and very political. It possesses as many dangers as it does relief. There is no grace in its chambers. Nothing individual happens there. You are not a person of significance but merely an issue. An issue that may or may not interest them, most of the time issues are refused about 1 in 40,000 are taken up. This is like the mating of black widows. The male spider has to do a masterful dance up on the web to present the female from viewing him as prey. The few who enter her courts rarely survive. She turns on them with all the power the males have prayed to restrain. This writ of cert will have to be fashioned perfectly for Scott and I to gain any benefit. I have already had to abandon one because there was a small chance this widow’s power would be directed at me. A small chance is to risky for our destiny.

I thank the Lord for the wisdom to see these traps in advance. The average lame world be courted to propagate their illusions of justice only to have their venom destroy them. I’m certain few Americans have the slightest clue what criminals they consider righteous.

If they did they would rarely surrender their brethren over to these tyrants you can molest a few boy in the choir and still be known as a priest within the community. This is the game played by our courts. May God cause them all to discover they have been discovered as perverts.

Winnie 11/22/10

There’s a lady named Winnie out there who has befriended me and I am the richer for it. Winnie has from cursory review a normal life. But one thing I believe was abnormal from her reports is that she has known love in her relationship. Many talk of love but only mislabel selfish agreement as love. Not so with Winnie as to detail her life was as full of the mundane task of existence as anyone. What I love about her is that she invest her love into the mundane. Faithfully writing cards (wonderful) and letters to a stranger in prison can not be more mundane and yet her genuine spirit and love gush from each writing.

Writing this blog can be very mundane. It is easy to justify quitting. My life is on slow motion compared to all my readers. Changes in my circumstances seem distant. Rarely now do I possess information relevant to the business of Dorean. All I desire to share I cannot because of the wicked eyes upon it.

Winnie told me God used my writings here to strengthen her during a time of trial. In this I am grateful! Her friendship a reward for exceeding my gift, she is a witness to the ways of God. He uses mundane task to convey His love in such a way as to strength your spirit. To encourage you to arrive at faith’s reward and to rest in a trustworthy love, God has been faithful to both of us, used both of us, and expressed His love through the mundane task of our lives. I love you Winnie as God loves you. How quickly you strength reciprocated.

The Principles of Skilling 11/22/10

In the Supreme Court case decided 6-24-10 the court interpreted the statute Title 18 1346. This is known as the McNally fix because it overturned McNally (1986) by adding honest service back into the mail and wire fraud statutes. In McNally the court interpreted these statutes not to include intangible property interest. Congress disagreed and passed section 1346. 1346 is a definition that basically said a “schema or artifice to defraud” includes honest service. The question skilling raised was, is this too vague to pass constitutional muster. The court said to save the statute they would have to confine the prohibited behavior to bribes and kickbacks. This definition has now been confined for constitutional reasons. Therefore it can now be read practically as a scheme or artifice to defraud includes bribes and kickbacks. This list is now the all inclusive list of behavior prohibited by the phrase “scheme or artifices to defraud” This phrase is in all the fraud statutes. At law the phrase now being defined must have the same meaning in every statute in which it is used. The problem you can already see is that even if Dorean the wicked scheme their rhetoric professed, it newer involved bribes or kickbacks. So Scott and I are convicted of a non-offense. It’s like raping mini-mouse they can write a statute prohibiting it but in reality my conduct could never violate it. They know this still it does not retard them from their malicious assault upon our innocence to the argument about truth in the mortgage industry. Call me guilty if you like but you become lawless in doing so.

Whoring Around 11/22/10

Ezekiel Chapter 23 describes the northern tribes (Aholah) and the southern tribes (Aholibah) of National Israel as women God entered a relationship with. Their names each colloguialism of the day for loose women. Women who preferred to wear their skirts over their heads as opposed to their loins.

I know a little of this type of women. My 2nd love was a loose woman I was too stupid to avoid. As much as I desired to domesticate her I could not change the way she wore her skirt. 3 decades later she had not changed. My frustration and demise were certainties though I knew it not at the time.

God goes on to describe these women as chasers of every lover they could find. Even to the perversion of bestiality. Yet His love is professed an evident. Of course the parallels. Between these women and ourselves is easy to own. All of us have hated God desiring the promise of every lover we could see.

Today I am married to a virtuous woman. One whom love can be freely exchanged. I can entrust my love to her as easily as I can trust her love. I have known in type both the whore’s idea of love and God’s love. The one thing about human nature that amazes me is how much effort we’ll place in trying to domesticate the whores of our lives while with the same vigor we’ll repulse a true and genuine love. How much longer will we hate the Virtue of a righteous lover?

Hired 11/22/10

Recently a good friend of mine hired someone I referred from this prison. This was a divine situation; this man is a husband with a lovely family. I knew instantly he had the call of God in his life. I did not get to impart much while he was here because of the influences he allowed into his life, but God is cleaver. Jobs are difficult to find especially in this economy as an ex-felon. Yet this man employed under my godly friend, now are all godly themselves. God used circumstances to change his influences. I’m certain that external fruit shall be reaped from this situation

I know this world lives in a hatred of God and themselves, but the few who do not get to witness God’s gentle wooing of His enemies into a love relationship. This man can’t see it yet or even fathom how rich a love is advancing upon him, but when he comes to that revelation he will see that God so loved him that he nurtured a business in a rough economy, developed some men to share there experiences under this love, and lastly ever sent a man to prison to make sure this lost soul was found.

As a witness to this type of love and to have this privileged to be a part of God’s work affirms the security one feels in the mastery of God in your own life. Scott and I are safe. We have both seen the hand of God lovingly moving through what must view tragic. I suspect this entire family will enter an eternal love relationship with God and that is a treasure Judge Alsap cannot steal from me.