The Brawl (12-29-06)

My pod consists of 18 two men cells. 20 of the 36 got into a brawl. Basically 16 blacks on 4 hispanics. Fortunately my celly and I were out of the frey. It was no accident one of the men at our table acted the ass so we left a little early. It is little events like this that make one think that the footsteps of the righteous are ordered of the Lord. These little incidents are really quite revealing because they shock you and speak about the character of the players. If violence turns your stomach these are not the best observations. Half my pod is here for murder so they don’t have the same appreciation of others. What is funny is the jailhouse code on ethics they fight over are so much more trivial than the standard they’ll ignore. Man of this generation is a blind self-absorbed creature. “ME” is the subject of every sentence or thought. This happened on a Friday afternoon which night they hand out commissary. Now a real thinker would take commissary, fight on Saturday, plunder the victims food and enjoy the lockdown retaliation. Thinking is not the abundant commodity. The guards of course cancelled commissary for all including my celly and I who were not involved. What I found an interesting study more than the brawl is the class maneuvers. First was the blacks an hispanics. Then it was the deputies against the inmates taking away privileges. Then it was the deprived and hungry responding to the loss of privileges. The logic in all this is dense. Men dependent on privileges with expectation of their uninterrupted flow. Punishing all by location like it will net you compliance though it never has. These behaviors seem reflexive like they have been planted deep in the psyche without a reasonable delay or review. I also noticed the victim minority did not offer any offense as a defense and suffered greater and more severe injuries. This also seemed reflexive. Do we really take the time in our lives to understand all the pitfalls, dangers, and battles around us? Have we ever checked our reflex responses in advance to reason if they are the best response options? A giant brawl is not necessary or a hostile milieu. It is your mind and soul, your decisions. You can give yourself a check-up anytime. Have you fasted to see how you might respond to a loss of food privilege? How about imagined or practiced physical responses to violence? What would I do if the bank makes a claim? I think most people live in a state of reflexive unpreparedness with the vain wish the brawl will never find you. I used this event and lockdown to question many things about myself. I do this in court and in this brawl called Dorean. I want to encourage you to do some introspection and see what you can do to better the odds. I have been very calculated in Dorean and not reflexive. My opponent has really been disturbed by this. They are very dependent on your reflexive responses to choose their course of action. Men are basically conditioned to please authority no matter how bizarre the statute is from those who dispense it to us. Maybe sometimes you should flex instead of reflex.