Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I Quit Again (2-14-09)

I should start with an apology. There are times when a man wishes he is a better man than he is. Today was Valentine’s Day. A day for me to acknowledge my love relationship. To truly love something or someone leaves you exposed to true pain and suffering. A severe pain tolerance is very different than a chronic pain tolerance. The suffering loss of my love relationship has been traumatic, chronic, and perpetual making it constant and unabated. Under this strain I have done all I can to remain strong but today I admit my failure. I can’t do this anymore. Add to this the constant assault against any attempt to do what is right by these highpriests of witchcraft and my shoulders have folded. I honestly wish I could be your champion and at moments I thought I could be but I must quit. I can’t pull off Phase One under these conditions. Maybe if God should have mercy upon me and somehow I prevail in any timely fashion an appeal or otherwise I can renew my strength and revisit my goals. I asked my wife for a divorce. It is said hope deferred makes the heart grow sick and the guilt associated with all your dashed hopes and hers has crushed me. I know my apology is shallow but a broken man lacks the depth you desire of me. I can offer the token I’ll remain in prayer for you but what offering is this. It is obvious God doesn’t answer my prayers. I don’t want to sound like a whiner so I think it best to just quit and to end the communication. I see no need to maintain this blog or to respond to your letters. Let’s just write me off to a failure. Thank you for your understanding in this matter.

P.S. As you can tell from the words of the prior paragraph there are some very strange words to hear from me. Even more so words like these many of you have spoken. These are atheistic words a vocabulary of doubt. The faith you have seen me display unwavering is the antithesis and annihilator of this vocabulary. Many of you can relate to this vocabulary but I have to ask you, can you continue to use them without losing your faith? It cannot be done. When one comes under the fire of unyielding circumstance spiritual forces tempt us to skew our vision away from our Creator. When we remain focused on Christ a vocabulary of praise for the attributes we see fills our soul. How can a vocabulary of doubt be reconciled with a Supreme God, a Sovereign God, a faithful God, a loving God, a patient God, a Holy God, and an immutable God? Have we so quickly forgotten His power over all creation to effect His will? NOTHING that enters your life has failed to pass through the Sovereignty of God. His sanction has already been stamped upon it. Where is murmuring, complaining, quiting, or a vocabulary of doubt? Is there any place for them for those who are chosen to be conformed into the image of His Son? Surely none of your worry or concern over Dorean, banker fraud, your foreclosure, or auxiliaries has brought you any again. My question to you is how can you not trust the God with these attributes? Do you think it a lie, an inducement of fraud upon man by man. I have never seen any attribute in man that would invent a God whose displeasure with his shortcomings would end with eternal damnation. To do this would require first the invention of a Holy God I could displease. No when men invent their gods they make Him benevolent, forgiving, and subject to their whims and fancies. You end up with stupid staff like 70 virgins, becoming a god myself, no hell, 100% paradise acceptance, and no conforming to anything except possibly personal ethics and social aesthetics. This is clearly displayed in the rhetoric of the retards on this blog.

My charge to you is don’t lose hope, never quit, change your vocabulary and focus. Look to the wonderful God who truly exists. Apply a justified faith to your circumstances and outlast all your enemies. This is the source of my strength and the same for you. We can truly say “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Know your God as we are known of God. All things come to an end when they meet their beginning. God is our beginning without end. As He is for you He is for all your troubles. We shall not be moved or defeated.

I loathe my suffering from my comfort desire but I cannot quit, nor can I find words in my vocabulary to express the development of the thought. Though I tease you intentionally with quiting if you knew God as I do you would know how utterly impossible that act would be and the joke would become an improbability. Be of good cheer the attributes of our God ensure I am a finisher. As to writing any more on this blog: I QUIT!


judge allslop said...

The syndicate never quits either and people love it. Now that the US Govt crime syndicate has cleaned out its citizenery, its decided to bring back regulation that would have protected from this criminal behavior including the up tick rule. Naked shorting has always been a crime,except for the syndicate elite. Send in the FBI? (Follow Banksters Instructions)

judge allslop said...

"When a government is dependent upon bankers for money, they and not the leaders of the government control the situation, since the hand that gives is above the hand that takes... Money has no motherland; financiers are without patriotism and without decency; their sole object is gain." - Napoleon Bonaparte, 1815
Only on Wall Street. As YOU are about to hand Citi billions more bail out money, they announce a profit? I can't wait to hear the chatter from financial tv and Goldman Sachs Lacky Jim Cramer. And who is Warren Buffet beholding to? He claims that no further attempts to find those culpable of crime will serve any purpose and prescribes a coming together and unity of purpose that the Pearl Harbor attacks produced. But who then, Warren, is the enemy we shall come together and unify against? Buffet is a coward; a special interest.Or maybe he is BROKE and owes some one a favor.

judge allslop said...

Create your own template.

Actual ‘Letter to the Editor’ from the February 5th edition of the Wichita Falls , Texas Times Record News…
Dear IRS,
I am sorry to inform you that I will not be able to pay taxes owed April 15, but all is not lost.
I have paid these taxes: accounts receivable tax, building permit tax, CDL tax, cigarette tax, corporate income tax, dog licence tax, federal income tax, unemployment tax, gasoline tax, hunting licence tax, fishing licence tax, waterfowl stamp tax, inheritance tax, inventory tax, liquor tax, luxury tax, medicare tax, city, school and county property tax (up 33 percent last 4 years), real estate tax, social security tax, road usage tax, toll road tax, state and city sales tax, recreational vehicle tax, state franchise tax, state unemployment tax, telephone federal excise tax, telephone federal state and local surcharge tax, telephone minimum usage surcharge tax, telephone state and local tax, utility tax, vehicle licence registration tax, capitol gains tax, lease severance tax, oil and gas assessment tax, Colorado property tax, Texas, Colorado, Wyoming, Oklahoma and New Mexico sales tax, and many more that I can’t recall but I have run out of space and money.
When you do not receive my check April 15, just know that it is an honest mistake. please treat me the same way you treated Congressmen Charles Rangel, Chris Dodd, Barney Frank and ex-Congressman Tom Daschle and, of course, your boss Timothy Geithner. No penalties and no interest.

P.S. I will make at least a partial payment as soon as I get my stimulus check.


near the end said...

Sorry about the Divorce dude.

judge allslop said...

Wonder what he would have got if he tagged the ...
BAGHDAD (Reuters) – A Baghdad court sentenced an Iraqi reporter who hurled his shoes at former U.S. president George W. Bush to three years in prison on Thursday.

OL5 said...

We really give a shit about your divorce. We paid alot of money to you years ago to get our mortgages canceled. Nothing in all those years has happend. Your wife should have left you. You gave so many people your word, why would she want to stay with you? Prove me wrong and stop gabbing about your relationship with Jesus he evidently hates you. Get the settlement and mortgage cancellations done. Our paper work has been ready for years now. Do your parts!

judge allslop said...

OL5. Kurt just wants to fuck with your head.
God hates you too.