Friday, August 29, 2008

The Babel of the Retards

I have just written about the pattern found in Nehemiah. Well let me use the folly before you to show another familiar pattern. I've also made it clear that God is in control. This is a very basic truth that is obvious to any who are not retards. In the book of Genesis chapter 9 man has just passed through the flood. God's plan was for man to prosper and to replenish the earth. Because of an illicit union of rebellion there was a major setback and destruction. God's plans for man had not changed and again He reiterates them to Noah and his sons. He tells them go "Be fruitful and multiply, fill the earth." This command seems simple enough and even natural but it won't take long for the retards to screw it up. In chapter 11 man has come to himself. Ignoring God's command they have chosen not to scatter and fill the earth but rather to remain in one place that seemed good in their sight. They also chose to make a name for themselves. This is that private and devastating chorus "me, me, what about me?" Every time I hear it I see it come from a person headed for trouble. It was no different here. When they wanted to make a name for themselves what they were really making their goal was to cast off the name of God from its place of authority over them. In fact the city's foundation was rebellion and the tower was the religious center that would reach to the heavens. Their delusion was that they could have a god in service under their authority. If it had been later in history they may even have called this sub-servant god Christ like the retards of today. But the real God which includes the real Christ even in this story says "let us go check out their plans." Seeing that it was contrary to His command He decides to confuse their language. Have you ever seen a retard whose language is not confused? It seems all common sense has left them. The irony in this wake is how they pontificate in what they think brilliance. Retards even if they collect themselves in the solidarity of a union still cannot thwart God's plan. In the end even against their heart's desire they were scattered to fill the earth. God is in control. God gets it His way. Here the great success of man would find praises in the mouths of the log eyed critics of today. The great city and awesome tower being clear evidence of God's blessing. They think they can recalibrate when they see God interrupt but they leave this place confused. Real faith can see long before God intervenes that man's actions are contrary to God's command. The man of faith does not view the great city as success but folly. He does not need to see its destruction to come to this understanding but he knows this when the first brick is laid in rebellion. Let the brilliant retards continue to ridicule me and you. They can glory in the great city the FBI and Alsup have built or be awed by the high towers of the bankers, but I saw the first brick laid in rebellion. God took time to move but a move was a guarantee. That is our promise. Amen!

Monday, August 25, 2008

Slow Progress (8-7-08)

I am being hampered in speed by my circumstances. I have not been able to get the payout website up. This is nobodies fault just the nature of events. Thank the Lord it shall be completed. Pray for me in this because I have a time table to hit that is controlled by other parties.

My criminal matter at the district level is now complete. I've come to the end of Mr. Alsup. At the end of the day I can say he really was a windbag. His bark had no correlation to his bite.

At the appeals court we await if they are going to force lawyers upon us. I like our chances of continuing as we were. This ruling should be any day. After that the first order of business will be the bond. We have never had a bond or hearing so we don't know what to expect. It would be nice because the BOP dolts are trying to do all they can to impede my appeal effort. This is an unholy system of bully tactics. Even if I just wanted to lay down and do my time they would draw me into a battle. They can't help themselves because they have no respect for God or man.

The civil lawsuit will take another 3-4 months before anything meaningful happens. There is just some volleying taking place before we get to the real issues. Don't worry about this one the retards are already set up for failure on this one. This trap was so obviously laid by me I never thought they would fall for it. The good news is I get Judge Jeffrey White who is Mr. Alsup's best friend. I like to keep trouble close to Mr. Alsup. We'll soon find out about the quality of friends he keeps.

I'm being moved if the warden has his way. In an act of retaliation for my acts at Dublin they are trying to punish me. What that means at the moment is not clear. I think they would like to ship me further from my family and to a higher security. I leave this to God. I am not my own. He is in control not the BOP. Where He wants me I will be. Stay blessed and I will update you again soon.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Same Old Pattern (8-5-08)

In the book of Nehemiah one man comes under conviction to see victory for God's people. He was in a life of comfort and had no personal reason to interrupt his life except that the things of God were important to him. The walls of Jerusalem were destroyed but when he went to the word of God he saw a hope for their restoration. When I started Dorean I likewise saw a hope in God's word that the plans I saw coming of the bankers was not God's plans. This is called an opportunity for faith. Yes you can hope God will use someone else but it continues to plague you personally. Then the question comes "If not me who?" This is the place Nehemiah found himself. It was where Scott and I found ourselves. It may be where you have found yourselves from time to time. Once you've made the commitment to action then a certain familiar pattern will appear. It did for Nehemiah. It is currently for Scott and I and probably for you. I think of one named Tammy who has already shared this with us.

The pattern starts with the faith target. Then comes the displeasure of those who were content in the way things were. They never can or will see what you have seen in the faith. (Neh. 2:10) When it becomes clear to these retards they have not moved you with their displeasure they move to mockery, scorn, and ridicule. (Neh. 2:19) They really cannot help themselves because the call of God is exclusive. They know spiritually they have been ignored by God. He has no pleasure in them. It is no accident they war against God and are blind to faith's opportunity. As you continue in the work of God your enemies will have gained converts. The crowd of retards grow because birds of a feather flock together. The next step for the malcontent collective of retards is force or violence. They can't help themselves. Their frustration of not being able to stop the work of God tempts them to desperate measures. (Neh. 4:7-14) Even this fails them and God delivers. Next and what I think the most painful is intrigue. Out of your own camp comes the betrayers. (Neh. 6:1-14) Friends plot and with kind words work against God. You've seen the pattern here and probably lived it. Victory is still the end. Let the pattern din into your spirit a justified hope.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Kiss My ---! (8-03-08)

I know most of you are thinking and rightfully so. If it were my words that I was presenting here I would surely address you retards in such a fashion. But it is not my words and God has little concern with the retards. He speaks and teaches for His children's sake. So let us talk of the kiss spoken of by the Father. There was the kiss of adoration by the woman who with oil and tears anointed the feet of Jesus. Only few have come to know Jesus in this manner. These few are easily recognized and are always scorned by those who view this behavior as a waste. Those whose soul have been so vanquished by the mercies of Christ have no ability to restrain the adoration from exploding out of them. There is another kiss which is a precursor to this. This is the kiss of reconciliation. The prodigal story depicts this. A man lost in sin and debaucheries comes to his senses when thinking upon life with his Father. The Father kisses the son and lavishes love and reconciliation upon him. This is also depicted by Jacob and Esau in their reunion. There is a third kiss which is the kiss of the masses. This kiss is the most popular. This is the kiss of flattery, of betrayal, of Judas. "Greetings, Rabbi!" For all the world to see in a secret code to please the crowds men kiss up to Christ with treachery in their hearts. That is the Christianity of the retards you see practiced on this blog. They have no understanding of Christ or His ways and yet they are there with their kiss and "greetings Rabbi!" Of these Christ said it would have been better if they were never born. They commit suicide. If not in body most certainly in spirit. Now God makes it clear in Psalms 2:11 that for your own well being you "Kiss My Son!" All will kiss Him and every knee shall bow to this Son. What kiss is upon your lips? Are you like the retards who know the kiss of lip service but whose hearts are not in it or are you with fear and trembling kissing your Lord? God has decreed "Kiss My Son!" and I have chosen to with all my heart. Greet each other with this holy kiss.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008


Judge Not

I am both saddened and angered by the responses of some of you “so-called Christians” who are so critical of Kurt & Scott. Christ came to save the world, not condemn it. Christians are not to set in judgment of other Christians or anyone else. The Bible teaches us not to judge or we will be judged in like manner.

When I met Kurt in February of 2005, the Lord showed me his heart as a true believer in Christ. God confirmed to me that both Kurt and Scott were doing what God had shown them to do and God wanted me to walk with them. My meeting with Kurt confirmed what I had already learned about the fraud in the system and now here was someone commissioned by God to attack it.

When you study the Bible, you will find that all the great leaders chosen by God had to walk a hard walk. Some leaders lived a desert life for a season. Others, such as King David, were forced to hide and live in caves until their appointed time of leadership. Still others were imprisoned for preaching the truth.

I have learned much from Dorean and their light has been dimmed but not put out. History will soon confirm the Dorean story. We should all emulate them as they have publicly forgiven their enemies including the judge.

Dear Scott and Kurt,

We just want you to know that we love you and admire you for your stand ‘in’ Christ.

We understand that in all the sufferings you are going through it is ‘all’ for the Glory of God ‘in’ His only Son Jesus.

When I pray or think about what you have been through, the pain of deception and lies told, the evil ploys of men to hide their sins from the world…… makes me ashamed. But these lies are an open book to our God.

The sufferings of this life only increase our rewards in heaven and magnify His Holiness upon the earth.

There are many people, as soon as they hear about soldiers in God’s army, when crucified by men of this world, turn their backs and begin to gossip and backbite, stomping upon the head of a fellow Christian. They say stupid stuff like: Oh! he must be out of the will of God for this to happen’ or they begin to gossip with others about ‘what they heard’ saying things like: ‘How can they be right with God and this happen to them?’ or ‘I am going to totally and completely disassociate myself from them….I do not want my name tarnished’ or ‘They must have done something wrong to be incarcerated’.

How naive Christians become when trials come. Do they not remember the scriptures how Jesus said we would be persecuted, tried/tested and lied about; as He was? Have we forgotten that Jesus warned us about the deceivers and false prophets; how the Disciples/Apostles were crucified, exiled, beaten and falsely accused for the cause of CHRIST.

Scriptures like: (All scriptures emphasized by me for clarity)

John 15:20

Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted Me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept My saying, they will keep yours also. But all these things will they do unto you for My name’s sake, because they know not Him that sent Me.

Matthew 10:19-22

But when they deliver you up, take no thought how or what you shall speak: for it shall be given you in that same hour what you shall speak. For it is not you that speaks, but the Spirit of your Father which speaks in you. And the brother shall deliver up the brother to death, and the father the child: and the children shall rise up against their parents, and cause them to be put to death. And you shall be hated of all men for My name’s sake: but he that endues to the end shall be saved.

I am amazed at how quickly we forget the Word when our Christian brothers and sisters are crucified for Christ… many act like ostriches, which bury their heads in the sand….God will have no wimps in His army!

Back in 2001 the Lord told me of seven (7) sins that were raging in the church; He also gave me (7) promises if the ‘church’ would repent and come back to their ‘first Love’. Listen to His words:

My desire, says the Lord, is to fellowship with you. But there must be a cleansing of the temple. The abominations must be exposed; 1) gossiping, 2) backbiting, 3) double mindedness, 4) slothfulness, 5) envy, 6) strife, 7) high-mindedness.

My house must once again become a House of Prayer. 1) Humble yourself before me and I, your Lord, will show you things to come. 2) Put away idle things that come between us. Talk to Me and I will answer. 3) Stay with Me and I will reveal Myself to you. 4) Set yourself apart and I will do mighty works through you.

5) Weep upon the altars and souls will be born into the Kingdom. 6) Worship Me and I will come and heal you, your church and your land. For in My presence all things consist and exist. I am the I AM, there is none like Me, 7) Worship Me and My presence will come and we will fellowship together once again.

GOD forgive us is my prayer!

Why do we allow the enemy to blind our mind and eyes when trouble comes? Why do we immediately assume ‘the Christian brother/sister’ is the one in the wrong? Why do we tear down our brothers/sisters instead of lifting them up? Why is it soooo easy to forget the Word of God that tells us what to do when one is in trouble.....Jesus being our supreme example?.....we are to LOVE them and PRAY for them:

John 13:5-12-15

After that He poured water into a basin, and began to wash the disciples’ feet, and to wipe them with the towel wherewith He was girded……So after He had washed their feet, and had taken His garments, and was set down again, He said unto the, ‘Know you what I have done to you? You call Me Master and Lord; and you say well; for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; you also ought to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you ‘an example’, that you should do as I have done to you….

John 17:9

I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which You have given Me; for they are Thine. And all Mine are Thine, and Thine are Mine; and I am glorified in them.

Ephesians 4:1-6

….you walk worthy of the vocation wherewith you are called, with all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in LOVE; endeavoring to keep the ‘unity’ of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body, and one Spirit, even as you are called in one hope of your calling; One Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

Ephesians 6:18

Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for ALL saints.

James 5:13

Is any among you afflicted? Let him pray. Is any merry? Let him sing psalms. Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: and the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he has committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.

Acts 12:5

Peter therefore was kept in prison: but prayer was made without ceasing of the church unto GOD for him.

There is so much more I could say, so many more scriptures I could give, but I think you get the message…..we are to ‘lift up’ our brothers and sisters not ‘go along with the crowd, stomping on them, gossiping, and crucifying them. We are to ‘listen’ to the Holy Spirit who will teach us what to say in that hour of persecution.

You want to hear of some other people/Christians that were put in jail, beaten, crucified for Christ sake: let us see if their being incarcerated brought glory to God:

1) Peter: thrown in jail….for the Gospel (Acts 12:1-17)

Results: Prayer brought Peter out supernaturally, increasing faith in believers.

2) Paul and Silas, beaten and thrown in jail.....for the Gospel (Acts 16:22-34)

Results: Jailer and all his family were saved and baptized; he also washed their wounds and fed them in his own home.

PS: Kurt/Scott: this verse is prophesized for you; be encouraged:

Acts 12:39:

And the keeper of the prison told this saying to Paul, the magistrates have sent to let you go: now therefore depart, and go in peace. But Paul said unto them, They have beaten us openly uncondemned, being Romans, and have cast us into prison; and now do they thrust us out privily? Nay verily; but let them come themselves and fetch us out…….and they feared….and they came and besought them, and brought them out……

3) Steven stoned to death…..for the Gospel (Acts 7:48-60)

Results: Steven did three things: 1) Vision: saw Jesus ‘standing’ (not sitting) on the right hand of God. 2) Showed love of God by praying for their souls, 3) Saw truth; Jesus never leaves you nor forsakes you.

4) Job stripped of everything….what was his sin? He worshipped GOD (Job 1:12-22,2:7-10)
Results: (Job 42:10-16) – the Lord gave Job twice as much as he had before; for all to see God’s amazing grace.

5) John exiled to the Isle of Patmos…..for preaching the Gospel (Rev 1:9)

Results: the Book of Revelation was written by the Holy Spirit through John for all to know the future of believers and non-believers…..what a love letter to us all.

6) John the Baptist……beheaded…..for preaching Truth (Mk 6:22-28)

Results: Souls are still being saved today because of his obedience.

7) Today: David and Linda, warriors in the faith, 18 years ago left their home and church in Brooklyn, NY to minister the gospel of Y’shua to the Jews in Israel. They have undergone severe persecution paralleling the ordeals of the early Christian church. David has had his back opened up many times from beatings; they have suffered threats and intimidation. Yet the gospel continues to go forward. (This is an excerpt from the website

Results: Many converts including Jews and Arabs and Gentiles.

8) Today: Scott and Kurt, warriors in the faith, whom God has anointed to speak and reveal truth and deception; are bearing afflictions for the gospel of Christ. The FBI, who are not part of the United States of America Government, stormed into their establishment, guns drawn, threatening, and illegally took documents and emptied their checking account; They have been taken from their families and illegally incarcerated; transferring them from pillar to post to keep them from communicating with friends and family, etc.

Results: Many people will hear the Truth and it will set them free from debts they did not owe. People will learn the truth and bondages will be released so the kingdom work will increase and the glory of God will shine again across this nation and the whole world.

In the scripture the Lord tells us we must be willing to give up everything for Him. After what He did for us, I do not think that is asking too much, besides He is the One who owns everything on earth, under the earth and above the earth…..He created it all for His Glory.

Luke 14:26

“If any man come to me, and hate not his father and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he can not be My disciple. And whosoever does not bear his cross, and ‘come after’ Me, cannot be My disciple. (We are to pursue HIM!)

Several prophetic visions and Words have been shown to me throughout the years revealing this time. This generation will see greater things in God’s kingdom as He builds an impregnable army…..this army will have NO FEAR….but will be full of FAITH, POWER and AUTHORITY. Youth need ‘strong’ mentors…..people like you, Kurt and Scott…..people willing to stand for Truth and Holiness….people willing to step out of the norm and be radical for Christ; who was the greatest radical of all. (Below are excerpts from other prophetic words)

I want to prepare you for battle, says the Lord. I will raise up an army, an army no man or demon of hell can stop. Another time He told me Do not to be concerned about the numbers because He was going to tear down what man built and build it back His way; where the gates of hell would not prevail.

Youth fear nothing but I will turn that to MY good. As the enemy comes in to hinder they will lift up the ‘SWORD’ for battle and run, run into it, believing ME to fight for them: ’The battle is MINE’, says the LORD, The Sword is raised and Victory is theirs!

Victory is in ME, I am the BEGINNING and the END. I AM ALPHA and OMEGA. I am, the I AM! Creation is mine, you are mine, now see MY SALVATION. See MY GLORY, See MY TRUTH!

They are strong and fearless and your faithfulness will usher in this stampede of Youth; This Army that CAN NOT be stopped…..‘FEAR NOT’..…They will hear, They will listen, They will March.

satan will be exposed in their eyes, and his chains will fall like dust to the ground.

January 16 2005

There are no wimps in this army. This army will be strong, pure and full of God’s righteousness…….this army is the Bride of Christ! (Prophetic Word) This army will be made up of the poor, maimed, torn, broken, and weak. This army will go in My Power, says the Lord, This army will heed My call. This army will listen to My voice. This army will march into the enemy’s camp without fear knowing…knowing who walks before them. For I the Lord am leading them. This army will not be turned by doubt or fear, for I am putting in them boldness, the same boldness I gave My servant Peter. The same anointing, the same mantle will cover them as covered the apostles and prophets of old.

Blessings will follow them, miracles will follow them. No mountain will be to high to climb…no valley to deep to go through. For they will be holding to My unchanging hand.

I am arming them….I am equipping them. They will march…they will follow…they will be victorious…climbing…climbing ever higher to see Me…

You see this will be My Bride…My Passionate Bride…My Bride without spot or wrinkle…My Bride pure and holy. My Bride who has prepared herself, adoring herself in pure white garments. Waiting…watching…longing for My appearing…the appearing of the promised Bridegroom.

About three years ago the Lord showed me something else; I have told very few about. He showed me this vision:
People ‘around’ the world ‘arm locked’, not hand in hand, but arm locked around the whole world. They were all in one accord, with one purpose and goal. They were in ‘perfect’ harmony worshipping and lifting Jesus higher and higher. At that time He will step out and call His Bride home.

Awesome! Can you see it? All are in one accord with one purpose and goal acclimating God and adoring Jesus. Totally surrendered in total worship to the Lamb of God, at the same time, will cause the Father to say ‘Go get Your children and bring them home.’ The scripture Jude 24 will be accomplished:

To Him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy. To God our Savior, who alone is wise, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and forever. Amen
I pray this word encourages the both of you, for you have been obedient and God honors that and He will fight for you, He is standing in the gap for you today and everyday. Keep the faith as I know you both will knowing we stand our watch upon the wall, our swords drawn and our shield of faith raised on your behalf, guarding you against the enemy. I believe JESUS is about to radically, supernaturally invade the situation and we are all going to see a miraculous deliverance…………all will see JESUS high and lifted up.

John wrote this about Jesus: ……….we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. (I John 2:1) and (I believe this can be applied to all immoralities) that no one should take advantage of and defraud his brother in this matter, because the Lord is the Avenger of all such, as we also forewarned you and testified. For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in holiness. Therefore he who rejects this does not reject man, but God, who has also given us His Holy Spirit.
(I Thessalonians 4:6)

You are not alone, as ‘ol slu foot’ would have you believe; for as God showed the prophet Elijah when he thought he was alone (I Kings, chapter 19) that 7000 had not bowed…..Scott/Kurt I dare say that there are that many standing with you both.

May God’s overflowing strength and grace encourage you both everyday in everyway, granting you wisdom and direction to finish this part of your journey.

We love you both

Monday, August 18, 2008

A Moment for Miracles (8-2-08)

Son of David have mercy on me
my heart cries out in need
Do you hear me do you see me
I wonder in my corporeal cares
You are the King of Spirits
and creator of all things flesh
Will I find any comfort here
or must I wait for the day of rest
Heaven is a state of mind its been said
yet how can this be true
For you walk and talk among men
and do the things we do
What is this new creation
where flesh is somehow perfected
How is it that nature is redeemed
not irrelevant or neglected
Are there not early flowers
that bloom before the Sun is at full strength
Are there not miracles to greet us
before we've run full length
For this I call out oh Holy One
to visit me in my time
and give me just one small taste
of that glorious, sweet new wine
To hell with those who wish to silence me
for you are acquainted with my sorrows
and I will cry out all the more
for the now, like there are no tomorrows
Son of David have mercy on me
my heart cries out in need
and grant me the faith to catch your eye
just a little, like a mustard seed.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

A Thousand Deaths and Still Dying (8-1-08)

As I mentioned in the past Christ was a man of sorrows and of course death. It was a unique death in that inherent within was the principle of vicariousness. It was not a natural death in one sense and in another the only natural death. It was not His death but one chosen by Him. He defies nature in her natural course to superimpose upon her a higher part of her nature. Nature displays the vicariousness which is within her but now reflects the very character of her King. He imposes His will and truth not as a foreigner but as a sovereign. Nature embraces this death, incorporates it, and follows God's lead. None of us is unique in the natural and yet all unique in the spirit. Each of our bodies possess elements that were once a virus, cow, thief, prince or King. So in this sense nature has us all so interlinked and dependent that vicariousness would be natural. In the spirit nature fails us because of the sheer independence of a man alone before his God. This is why Christ had to do what he did. This is also where the fraud of the retards is exposed. They defy death. It is evil in their eyes. They are so selfish they cannot get the logs out of their eyes. I talk of the thousand deaths I've had to incur during this Dorean mission and I am evil. They can't comprehend the ways of Christ which lead to an abundant life through death. Think of all within you that had to die over these 3+ years while you had to wait upon the Lord. Vicariousness is love. All the commands are summed up in this love. Christ while we were yet sinners dove down into the muck and mire of this bog and in the total darkness grabbed the sunken prize only to reverse the fall and raise us again into the fresh air of life where there is color and light. Why does it surprise you that He calls others in His body to the same work? Have you not been asked to die to self and live for Him a thousand different ways? Are you still not dying? Let's not mock His ways and patiently wait for His resurrection life to break forth like the new day. He is still killing "me" softly. How about you?

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Upward Mobility (8-1-08)

Well it appears I am continuing to be punished for what I did at Dublin. Safford either got spooked by my actions or in an act of solidarity for their friends at Dublin they are taking another swing at punishment. Once I was served with the lawsuit CV-08 2325 JSW in which the government sues to remove some UCC financing statements that were placed upon various federal actors, the actions against me ensued. I have not been sanctioned for any violation within the BOP or violations of law. The accusation in the suit is that of violations of Mail fraud again. The suit troubles me none. On its face it is very flawed. I will let them discover this along the way. If you want to learn how to throw off the 1000 lb. gorilla you will want to watch the paperwork in this case. Safford has requested I be moved to a higher security prison. It is up to region to grant or deny this request. Since I have no friends at region I expect it to be granted. That means I'm in the SHU for the next few weeks and then the special in house travel. I probably won't be settled into my default housing unit until middle of November. This is causing delays in the plans I have for you but God willing I will get the job done. Your prayers here will be appreciated.

We are still awaiting the appeals court ruling if we can avoid counsel. After this ruling our bond motion will be heard. I am still very diligent about the work before me. "No worries" a friend of mine used to say. I am still separated from my legal work which has my Phase One blog included therein. If I don't get it soon enough I will rewrite it to let you know what kind of pay-out to expect. Those of you faithful I hope you are seeking the Lord how we can continue to work together doing His work. The rest will take their blessing and like the 9 lepers not return any thanks. Don't be like them. Let all the world know what great things the Lord has done. Expect changes as I move up in the world.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Chosen (7/26/08)

The Bible is replete with the theme of the chosen. We follow it through Seth to Shem to Abraham the father of many nations. Mary of all women gets to be the womb of the Chosen One. In Luke she burst out in song and rightfully so. What unspeakable joy to come to the comprehension of the historical significance of this selection. But something else came along riding shotgun as it were. A sword will pierce your very soul. Jesus Himself the ultimate in God's selection had to be the preeminence, the one cherished and adored above all. The Palm Sunday (Sat) Hosannas being what should always take place. But no we have a man of sorrow. How do we reconcile the songs and the sufferings. In Abraham all the nations of the world are blessed. In Christ every creature and nature herself have the promise of renewal. Ephesians 1:4 has the word "chosen" in context. The text makes it clear how blessed a state it is to be one of the chosen. Of course you cannot have selection without the concomitant deselection. The equality and fairness doctrines of our creaturely morals not getting a vote. Many of us feel blessed after discovery of our calling. We likewise burst out in song, but do we really understand the joy of this calling. I say not until the sword pierces thy very soul and you are acquainted with sorrows.

Now to the few of you who are serious about your faith pay attention and let the spirit do its work. This truth is one of the dividing lines between the Neo's and the Scott's of Vineland and the chosen. Many are called but few are chosen. Can you embrace the sorrows. We know how many have cried out in their pain (real) away with that man. How they ridicule and mock me with their platitudes of Scripture and their Christ of convenience. Some even make the shallow (very) promise that if everything works out I'll return as a cheerleader. Faith (real) doesn't work like this. It knows of the sorrows. It knows the ways of God. It sees the promise afar off before the eyes can see it. Abraham knew of his blessing all the nations of the world and he knew Isaac was part of this. It was the only thing that could give him the strength that could survive the torque of his wrenching heart as he rose the knife. This faith is not crushed by the gravity of a self-absorbed universe. Its prayers are far past the infantile "me, me, what about me?" You see it in the comments here as well as the whole of your existence. From the loft of comfort they condemn you in your suffering or in their suffering they blame and cry. If they believe they know God their me prayers and curses come rolling off their lips. We are not like them. Yes our heart is wrenching and our tears just as salty but God is doing a work. He is getting acquainted with us and we are getting acquainted with this man of sorrows.

When I founded Dorean with Scott there was a song in our hearts. God had chosen us to do a good and noble work. It had its joy and its ease. I could even see how it would help many. It wasn't really until the suffering came that I realized this was the small picture. It wasn't until I saw the protracted suffering of the clients that I understood the true majesty of God's plan in Dorean Let me use the parallel story of Gideon. The first selection of God netted an army of 32,000. The second a troupe of 10,000. The third a band of 300. Logically to the human mind the more the merrier but God had not committed Himself with them. (Jn. 2:24) It was this band the few, this group of earthen vessels that the light of glory would enter the world. (Jn. 3:19-21) At first this light is concealed by the earthen vessel but it is still there doing its work. Patience and obedience are being taught while the vessel is getting acquainted with the light.

This is central to Christianity. There is a price to pay, a cross to bear, a death that must occur. "Christ shed tears at the grave of Lazarus and sweated blood in Gethsemane : the Life of Lives that was in Him detested this penal obscenity not less than we do but more. On the other hand, only he who loses his life will save it." (C.S. Lewis) Being chosen is on the backside of death. Many are called. Many get their songs of joy, wonder, and awe. But like the sons in the prodigal story one undeserving has great appreciation for the fatted calf (sacrifice / suffering) and one considers it a waste. The sifting of those who are going to cross that divide is coming to an end. The shofar is going to blow and the decree that the earthen vessel acquainted with the light be broken. And with a shout the light of this world will burst onto the scene. The enemies will see the light as the forefront of an unseen army of irresistible force and the Rahabs of the world will see the bright shining of their hope breaking forth like the new day calling them to be grafted into the very blood line of the Lord. The vessel must be broken. The sorrows must complete their work. The wall will fall. Like John the Baptist said "I must decrease and He must increase." There is a new song even greater than the first that arrives the moment you see that through your suffering Christ Himself has been set up like a city on a hill you shall have it no other way. I have sweat my blood and cried my tears but now for the glory set before me I have but joy. If you are there with me, if you are part of this small band let us harmonize our songs and sing Glory, Honor and Praise to Christ the Man of sorrows, glory in the highest! How sweet it is to be chosen! Is it not true the seed must die before the harvest? The harvest is great but the workers are few. Now the Lord of the Harvest speaks - this word of prophecy to you:

"The time is coming swiftly and is yet here that the lovers of themselves and the haters of God will beat on your door with contempt like they did in Sodom. But the light that you have been chosen to display will radiate and penetrate their intentions. My glory shall blind them and they shall stumble upon themselves. But you shall no longer dwell in the valleys I am taking you to the mountains. Don't look back there will be nothing left behind. I have come into the world to bless and bless I will. You are my chosen vessel acquainted with suffering. When I send you out among the hurting the downcast you shall not be a fraud. It is my pleasure to shine through you and for that pleasure you have been chosen. You do not yet see how many you will reach or the extent of that reach but my harvest is white and ready for you. Before I come this door I lay open before you and no man can shut it. I will take your little faith and I will pray to the Father to multiply it past the need to abundance. I speak now of economics and of my gifts. Whatever need presents itself to the broken vessel will see my glories shine forth. It is no accident I have taken you this course. Your cries I have heard but others are still crying. I have work to be done. Put away the tears there is gladness for morning. Full to the brim were my vessels in Cana now I command you "draw out" my supply shall never run short. Like muted trumpets at a distance will I make the voices that have ridiculed you. With envy they look upon you but I will not entrust myself to them. Go now with open hands and I will send to you my Rahabs. They will seek you out because your testimony of me is true, it is honest. Remember how at the beginning you thought this was about you? Laugh with me now! Oh how I have loved you and oh how I love the hurting : Feed my sheep! Obey and even your enemies will deliver my blessings to you. You have been faithful in little now be faithful in much. Remain broken for I am the only one who can sanctify a band of crackpots. I will develop a unity between you and together you shall do more than apart. Know that my hour has come strap your shoes on and be ready your redemption has been sent."

This blesses me to which I say "AMEN!" I have put away my tears the hope that is before me consumes me. The little left to do is no burden at all. I delight in God's plan. All my love; faithful.