This prolonged incarceration has been a test upon patience. There are so many temptations of haste in the human spirit. Imaginations of life always promise a reality of possibility even though they can never deliver. Patience’s has to accompany trust or trust will fail.
When I think of Christ those 3 hours on the cross I see patience working along side trust. Being empowered at any moment to deliver yourself from suffering and yet ride out God’s intention rather than your own is a living patience. Even past the perception of God forsaking you, when you realize that Christ had to wrestle with sin in humanity until He conquered it and in doing so bore the purifying wrath of God to its fullest measure you’ll see patience, He did not hang there as the propitiation lamb of the Passover with no sense or will. No He was more that the type could teach. He was God in crenate using His will in trust to conquer the root of sin in the object of His affection which was rebellion or not-trust. Not for appeasement but for deliverance, A deliverance that was love’s expression, a trustworthy love that only patience will discover.
There were four co-defendants in our case besides Scott and me. I know that each of them was falsely accused, each I’m certain had to face the same demons of fear as Scott and I. Yet each found an exit swifter than us. I cannot judge them though I know of one whom the Lord gave me charges over which I could judge by the spirit. But patience would not allow Scott and me to betray trust. Even to the present patience has not waned in its resolve to see the testimony of Christ, which is His faithful love, revealed in the historical accounts of our lives. This testimony is not what drives the human spirit but is merely an expectation of that which rives God’s children. With His perfect love He loved us first and our reason given over to the Holy Spirit can deduce realistic and factual expectations based upon His reliable work. This is called faith, a special faith; the faith of Christ, which by example took this trust to the furthest extreme and revealed to us the course it takes. Patience lets it take us on that course and like Christ whose will desiring to get off the cross stayed the course to allow God’s love to bring its deliverance.
For Scott and I this is our best hope to overcome the wickedness that assaulted us and you by attacking you trustees, you may take offense at the delay and apparent uncertainty but you should take confidence that by the same power of will in Christ Scott and I have not jumped off our cross when we were empowered to and will stay with patience until deliverance is completed. That’s what love commands, that’s how love behaves, that’s loves course.