Eloquent Symmetry (9-10-09)

Eloquence is not the symmetry of the word smith. It is the ability to express truth in a pleasing way that entices the self-love of the hearer to take an interest. Alsup is a sophisticated writer but cannot be considered eloquent because of the absence of truth. In his Kinney order he categorically lists many fragments of truth but places them all parenthetically within a fraudulent premise, "words differently arranged have different meaning, and meanings differently arranged have different effects," Blaise Pascal.

What I've discovered in my short journey of existence is that T.S. Elliot observed what I have seen. "The majority of mankind is lazy-minded, incurious, absorbed in vanities, and tepid in emotion, and therefore incapable of either much doubt or much faith; and when the ordinary man calls himself a skeptic or an unbeliever, that is ordinarily a simple pose, cloaking a disinclination to think anything out to a conclusion."

I have been faced with this cloak adorned as a black robe with force. To the intuitive mind this is an enigmatic challenge seeking conclusion. To the dullard a mere triviality of surrender phrased "you can't fight city hall."

Being capable of much doubt in a battle as this also means I am capable of much faith. That faith has been expressed eloquently to the intuitive reader who for the constant and versatile application of truth entices their spirit to love themselves by trusting God. This is living the life you've been given. Everything else is just passing through.

Secret Success (9-10-09)

Psalms 25:14 states “The secret of the Lord is with those that fear Him.” There are many other Scriptures that talk of God’s mystery. It is a sign of intimacy when friends and lovers share secrets. What an honor when God reveals His mysteries to you. Dr. Scott used to say about himself that he found things in the word that were obvious to him that he thought everybody else saw. He soon discovered this was not the case.

As one who could easily get swallowed up with the doubt of my circumstance I find great comfort in revelation. If God loves me enough to share some of His secrets I am safe. I wonder if you can make the same deduction concerning your relationship.

Dorean was birthed out of the secret wisdoms of the Lord. Not in that accounting, contracting, and standards of trade are mystical, but the frauds and powers behind it are. Only those in whom the Lord confides can be empowered to challenge. The question of Isaiah arises “If not me whom?” Who else but those informed of secrets can find the courage to take a step. I have to remind myself that the first step of this wayward journey was a miracle of loving kindness. Proverbs 21:22 makes it clear that it is the wise man that prevails against the strongholds of the wicked. When God reveals His secrets to your heart becoming wise is axiomatic. It is why the enemies of God are truly fools. Do not fear the path wisdom sets before you. The fact you see it is the perfect evidence of prevailing. The very thing needed to complete the journey was the gift that started it. What pains of suffering could dislodge the joy from a man’s heart of knowing God has befriended him and shared some of His secrets? Success is in the secret and that will be your secret success.

Pay Your Debts (9-6-09)

Many are acquainted with debts exceeding their ability to pay. Sin has also caused us a debt we can never afford to pay. Yet if you can ponder the antiquities of eternity as David did in Psalms 25:6 you’ll remember how God’s tenderness and mercies have flown from a majestic, infinite fountain of love.

Depicting this truth is an impoverished widow in 2 Kings 4:1-7. God addresses the need out of this fountain of love and like the oil supersedes the need. Likewise God can say to you sell what you need to satisfy your debts and live off the rest.

I have been living off this abundance a very long time. Even in a prison of misfortune I am out of debt. No sin hangs over my head. Can it be that what transpires in truth, in the spirit cannot manifest similarly in the flesh? In Luke under the exhortation not to fret or worry God commands us to strive.

Strive for His Kingdom. This may include going to and fro in search of empty vessels but oil flows as His effort. He is your source. His abundance will answer the need in this life as well as the next. As to the rest: live on it!

Stop listening to the rhetoric and opinions of dead men. Shut them out, close the door, and in private let God settle all your debt and more.

Appeal to Thyself (9-3-09)

I have been accused all along of a selfish evil intent. Dorean has been vilified as my tool of self interest. This is easy to profess but can it be proven?

I am about at that time in this exercise where the appeal is finalized as to content. There is a particular issue I can raise which guarantees me a loss of 20 years from my 25 year sentence. The Supreme Court precedent is convincingly clear. The problem with the appellant court is they have a primary goal to keep and secure the conviction. They have no requirement to address, examine, or rule on all the issues you raise. They are notorious at taking the path of least resistance to their goal.

That means I am faced with a serious decision. If I raise this argument I will win. Everyone else will lose. The conviction will be affirmed and I will be immediately released from prison. Any issue not raised in the appeal is forever waived. That includes this winning issue.

If I was as self interested as my critics condemn me, would I again miss such a great opportunity of self interest? How long will it take before enough contrary evidence overcomes the lie? I will not present this issue at great personal risk for truth’s sake and your sake. If I lose on my other issues I get the pleasure of wearing all 25 years. What would 20 years make you do? Until you can reconcile your choices with mine you will not know how to judge me aright.

Even as I write this I am so far removed from my past that my memories have blurred. So far isolated from my hopes that my imaginations are blinded. Finalized resolution is a temptation screaming into my hearing sense with such vigor “take the sure route.” Adding that weight I still shall not move from the course of faith set before me.

I am preserving myself but in love. In doing so I am free to preserve your interest which harbors in love also. Many will never understand a post as this. Only those who love a cross more than life itself can find the life they are losing. A paradox for sure and an uninterrupted parable to the soul that appeals to thyself.

Permission Granted (9-3-09)

There is a simple verse missed by many of its potency in the story of Jesus healing the demoniac. My prison is truly nothing compared with what bound this man. He was possessed of thousands of demons. He became so violent that he was chained by the locals. He was mad and having broken his fetters lived in the rocky wilderness, naked, isolated, feared, and alone.

Jesus arrives on the scene mild mannered but not impotent. He confronts this man’s problem directly. The demons have no ignorance of Christ authority or His power. They know Him as Lord of all. They for reasons not discussed here know they are going to be forced by one greater to make their exit from plaguing this man. They seek permission to enter a herd of swine. Permission was granted.

What amazes me about that simple truth is how it can speak to any situation. Imagine the devils seeking to cause you to lose your home. They have to address your Lord. Permission granted! A Judge wishes to misuse his power upon me. What say ye Christ? Permission granted! Nothing befalls us excepting the Lord’s permission. For His good pleasure and reason to His delight He allows. Fret not over your troubles. Remember who granted permission. Our enemies are not superior. Only tools in the hands of authority. Trust Him who values you enough to liberate while destroying the pigs around you.

Redemption By Power (8-22-09)

The actual Christ can be identified by His significance as a Redeemer. His first advent was for the redemption of sin and death by blood. If redemption was not a factual need then the Christ of history was an irrelevant figure. If on the other hand our guilt is factual then His vicarious sacrifice is pivotal.

Power can be measured in a couple of ways; expression and restraint of expression. E may fear the burst of an angry man but we respect the restraint of a prudent man. All of us know how much more power it takes to tame our souls as opposed to abandon to its wild expression.

Christ Second Advent is the expression of power everyone expects from a superior power. There will be flaming swords, glaring eyes, and annulations of His enemies. This is the redemption by power on a good scale. We should not lose the significance of the intimate dealings of the Lord with His children by thinking His major plans for redemption vary from His minor. The redemption by blood is a historical fact for all believers. The personal trials the purchase redemption that gave Christ a property interest in us should be understood. Likewise factually it should be understood that a party of interest axiomatically is vested as an interested party. He concerns Himself with you. Because of this interest His redemption by power is a relevant promise. He is a delivering redeemer.

Recently I read Robinson Crusos who based his entire hope on a sole scripture that promised deliverance. It came many years later but his hope was not vanity. We have a much more sophisticated faith based upon comprehension of more scripture. Yet this should not abate a childlike trust for deliverance.

Alsup as a man is possessed with too much power to be held absolutely. He is nearly untouchable for his criminal acts. Yet he cannot comprehend the power of restraint or of real authority. Christ who will express His power ultimately does not ignore or neglect individual opportunities to express His redemptive power expressed by force of will. He will enter into my confrontation with a powerful man and show Himself strong. We have no fear of being ashamed for hoping in our deliverance for as Christ wraps up history He wraps up our troubles and woes.

Noble men hate more than anything to have their faith in Christ ridiculed because they know the integrity of their God. Yet we must all suffer fouls until they discover our redemption by power at their destruction.

WE have the redemption purchase as evidence our hope in redemption by power is not vanity. Put your hope in God. He will deliver you!

A Possible View (8-13-09)

The view of faith will never see itself as pride does.  Faith will always look to God for grace because it judges God's word faithful.  And the only merit it seeks is that belonging to God.  There are many like Scott from Vineland, Nemo, and Fruity who are always trying to measure a man by some righteous standard.  Faith abandons this exercise long since.  It knows righteousness is a gift.  That good works are assigned and empowered by the Lord.  A man living by faith has footsteps ordered of the Lord.

When our many critics express our shortcomings it is impossible for these judgments to be an expression of faith.  That is why they condemn themselves by their words.  They judge us faithless sinners while they sin faithlessly in their judgments.

Do you really think God is fooled?  Have you ever thought that God’s prohibition against judging others was because it can’t be done in faith?  All things not of faith is sin.  Now I do think God possesses us with spiritual discernment but that is faith based.  Faith recognizes the qualities of faith in many variations.  It’s not judging the person only itself.  It looks at faith’s expression then judges itself internally within your life.  Anytime it comes up short it does not condemn but reaches to God’s mercy and asks for an increase.  It nurtures itself.  When it judges faith in another misguided in does not condemn.  It encourages, prays for strength, and guides with truth.  The body through faith edifies itself.  Any measurement from pride is man to man.  Any measurement made from faith is God to man.

Faith is a difficult journey because it is like a six sense that rebukes the other five.  We should all be there for each other who are brave enough for this walk.  The journey has enough suffering inherent that senseless and added persecution only increases a burden.  Do you hate yourself so much that you can’t love another even if weaker?

I know most of you don’t understand the pains of my journey.  Perhaps because you perceive me a cause of your pains you might partially delight in my suffering.  I do think of your pain and always make decisions to sooth it ultimately.  Until God gives me that victory.  I’m not tearing you down for your sins.  No faith in me is reaching to faith in you to encourage your .look to be faith based on what God ordained to you.  Not what men have created.  Be lifted up and not cast down.  By faith all things are possible. 

You Remind Me (8-12-09)

Faith is definitely a gift that holds onto a future promise. But it is not limited in this usefulness. I have learned that faith has the eyes of eternity. It can look into the present or the past to see all promise at work. It notices life. If I take the Abraham and Sarah story from scripture I have a word picture of faith. A dead womb was given a promised life. One day life entered it. Then signs of life began. There would be kicking, expansion, hormone changes etc. Soon life and the promise could not be denied.

How many promises has God given you? Do you scour your life to find signs of life? The Psalm show faith’s many views. It looks to all God’s faithfulness currently or in the past. Signs of life should be speaking to you constantly “You remind me” of God’s word of promise.

Using my life as an example; I received a word of promise which has been showing signs of life for 20+ years. The seed was planted thought delivery is still to come. When studying the law and all the traps inherent within it, created by wicked men, fear and doubt can tempt you. I began to ponder just one “seed” promise from scripture. The first prophecy of the Bible in Gen. 3 promised a seed. Warfare began immediately to destroy the promised seed. In the Abraham and Sarah story right after the child promise comes seed warfare by a worldly King. All faith promises will come under fire by a worldly King of some kind. Yet God protected His promise. The worldly King had to surrender. I know my life is not in the genealogy of the coming Messiah but the promise is of the same source and of the same origin. God does not change. Every promise made has the same guarantee of fulfillment because He who spoke it is the most powerful being and does not lie. So in a sense the coming of the Messiah in my promise has the same emphasis as His appearing in the flesh the first time. Heaven is always watching and keeping record of every instance where Messiah must appear in human history. My promise is no less significant than Isaac because God’s credibility is intact. Therefore even distant promises of the past can be mined for relevant faith today. No matter the look faith will bring strength. I wonder how many of you when this Dorean nightmare developed stopped looking to all God’s prior blessings in your life. Did you allow fear and doubt to steal the great wealth out of your past?

Would you have made all the same decisions if you were watching all the signs of life. The promises change your life. Even a dead womb cannot stop the new decisions that have to be made. Diapers, crib, breast feeding, etc. If your faith is active you will not be blind.

I hope it can be said of me “You remind me” to look for signs of life in every direction. God always reminds me whiled the enemy tries to cause me to forget. Well forget it, it’s time to remember!

Boo! (8-10-09)

I imagine in life there are many things that produce fear. Hollywood has an entire genre dedicated to produce fear. In spiritual warfare there are roaring lions and every type of spectre, ghost, or phantom to tempt you into cowardice.

When Alsup appeared in my life he brought with him a myriad threats and spook. On every front were minions of shadow people taunting with their howls, growls, screeches, and boos.

When I talk of our champion it is not just for ethereal speculation. The contemplations are to bring reality into the world of spooks. The faith of Jesus is all about reality though it may hold onto truths beyond our five senses. Knowing Him and His ways has a way of shinning the light of revelation into this dark and evil world; Exposing the fraud of all their threats.

As I sit in a prison victimized by power used outside God's authority I am not afraid. Jesus is alive and an irresistible force of righteousness. No foe can escape His vindication of His rights. Do you really know the Lord, Jehovah-Saboath? Do you have any understanding of who came to dwell with you or who you solicit with prayers? If you still shudder when you hear "Boo!" like you did as a child then I would say you have not yet put away childish things. Mature to trust and fear not!

Jealousy of Honor (8-8-09)

Confession of love without jealousy of honor is unconvincing. One of the consistent qualities found among true children is their jealousy for God's honor. It infects their entire being. No sacrifice of suffering turns their hearts. The thought of the wicked taunts of "where is your God? and the like gaining evidence offends them. Faith rises up and prayers such as expressed in Psalms 25 : 2-3 pour out of their spirit. There is a difference between the righteous and the wicked. The righteous are in a marriage relationship where the honor of their groom consumes their being. Contrariwise the wick are whoring after their own personal last and seeking honor and glory for self.

My wife honors me and her love confessions are irrefutable. No doubt can grow under these conditions. I wonder if a man is not fooled by true love how we expect to bluff the Lord. He knows all mans hearts and the lack of jealousy for His honor is revelation easily exposed.

One thing I've noticed in Scott and I in this Dorean battle is an utter contempt at the idea that a wicked judge could prevail upon God's righteous intentions. I would die before I would faint at resisting evil. I know Christ as victor and as Jehovah-Saboath. No peon misanthrope can be allowed to make a boast upon my watch. You will see Christ glorified by this Dorean battle because honor drives my faith to victory. Let it do the same in you for love, true love, as the heart behind the faith of Christ would sacrifice all to see God honored. Those giant pearl gates lifted to receive a champion who jealously guarded the honor of God. His children enter the same gates with the same jealousy. To God e all glory, honor, and praise. To the wicked a taunts our God is the only God who lives and loves His own; bring it on and see your folly.

Who is this King of Glory (8-7-09)

Psalms 24 asks and answers this question. Many people use the name of Jesus generically to identify the fictional deity of their imaginations. There is the cosmic Jesus which is the great spirit within all of us. There is the prosperity Jesus whose worth and blessings are apportioned for this temporal existence. Jesus the good and wise teacher and the many others . These are not the King of Glory discussed in this Psalm.

As I studied this Psalm I imagined the city to have 2 allegorical parallels to run with the actual city of Jerusalem topiced within. One is the New Jerusalem (Heaven) receiving this ascended conqueror. The other is the city of our heart. I began to imagine King David with the ark singing this song possibly in a round or a rhetorical between singers and a choir. The procession would be long, jubilant, full of pomp, and glorying in triumph. David being the shadow type of Christ. I could see the angels singing as Christ enters leading captivity captive. Likewise the majesty of who entered my heart to dwell began to fill my heart with awe.

Have you really contemplated who chose to enter and dwell? This is the Lord of Host. None greater or with more power. Regal in the highest order yet condescend in love to you. This contemplation was changing my views on prayer, authority, victory, and battle. Just at this time I received news of my sister’s cancer miraculously improving. This great King was invited into the city of this need and He proved Himself to be worthy of all the honor and as potent of reputation repeated.

There is no difference between sin, bankers, judges, or cancer. They all defy this King and speak of death but who is this King who defeats them all? He is the Lord mightily in battle. He is the real Jesus. Lift up your heads and be lifted up and let this King of Glory enter.

Appeal (8-1-09)

The government has requested until Oct.21 to respond to the brief. We are working on an amendment to strengthen our chances. The first brief was a collaboration of attorneys doing a poor job. One of the attorneys listened a little to my issues and substantially improved the brief before it was filed. Are arguments winning? I don't think so yet, I wish I could say this case was about the facts and the truth but it never has been. It has always been about the bully system intimidating its way to victory. As a man I should be afraid for my life if that were the whole story. Fortunately for Scott and I we were only predators dressed as prey. By God's design we were called to enter a very dangerous game of chess, but we are trained by the best. I want to reiterate for all of you who face overwhelming challenges in your life, it is not God's way to give you understanding and wisdom to prevail in the beginning. He creates the scenario for trust and then supplies wisdom and understanding as the spoils of war for the trust. He has been faithful to supply what I need to prevail when I needed it. I keep a few informed on the developing legal issues and I'm sure many will say God is equipping me for victory. We have solid hope for a complete victory using their very own over zealous efforts to come back and bite them in the ass. God had confounded them from the very beginning and in time He reveals the trap He laid at inception. He is great and the best trustee you can have. That is why Scott and I rely upon Him to bring you victory. The amended brief will be the winner or I will submit one myself.

Title Deed (8-1-09)

Because the Bible is in its root form a commercial document many of its truths overlay the Dorean process. In our process we captured title back from a bogus claim. This is never been an issue for God. He has always been the undisputed title holder. The two great seals upon the deed would be providence and creator. "The Earth is the Lords and the fullness thereof" Psalms 24. The little documents that are disputed by men are transient illusions. If your attachment is anymore than transient you are deluded. The Earth (land) rest upon the seas and been established on the floods. If you or anyone else takes God's title as moot you plant yourself firmly upon the waters. Forget the unstable sands chosen as a foundation by fools and consider the impossible foundation of water. Every man owes his entire being and existence to the gracious care of the Lord of all. The lands we fight over and stake our hearts upon are mere floats held up by God alone. Christ was speaking a greater truth when He rebuked the disciples for their faithlessness when He calmed the sea. The very fact we exist is because He is master and tamed the sea. If we forget our standing and significance by losing sight of who God is then we begin to fear what has already been firmly established. In fact far more evidence exists for our spirits that God is true than what we base our fears upon. What does God have to do with the title issues inherent within the Dorean process? He's the only owner to petition for privilege and the only thing between me and the floods that want to consume me. It is the same for you.

Scott has been release from the SHU and is now residing at Victorville FCI if you would like to write him.

DALE SCOTT HEINEMAN 12152-081
FCI VICTORVILLE MEDIUM I
FEDERAL CORRECTIONAL INSTITUTION
P.O. BOX 5300
ADELANTO, CA 92301

Being Yourself (7-19-09)

I was reading the scriptures at I Chronicles 12. This is not one of the most moving blocks of scripture yet God used it to give me a sweet revelation. In the height of God's supernatural faith being imparted as a gift that can get you through any circumstance is this lingering person called yourself. Many times you seem to be a spectator to your own life. I was kind of in this place where my flesh is weary while my spirit is strong. In this scripture God chronicles the names of men who joined David in the wilderness. It lists some of their exploits as warriors but doesn't say anything of their prayer life, love, compassion, or any spiritual gift. I think the devil tries to beat us over the head with the ordinariness of our lives. Most of us are not healing the sick, moving mountains, or calling fire down from heaven. This band of men were skilled in war but that is a human exercise. This is a very flattering version of their alliance to David. In other text they are ready to kill him when raiders took their wives and children. They were loyal but with all the frailties of humanity. The one thing that stands out as a spiritual choice is that they aligned themselves with the word of God. Samuel spoke of David being King and these men chose to believe it and stake their lives on it before God made it obvious to the masses. They were men of flesh, ordinary in circumstance except for this one choice. They did obtain extraordinary victories over time in the ordinary course of being themselves only because they believed God's word true. If you like them can make that choice before it is made obvious that is a supernatural miracle. No greater miracle is needed in the ordinary life for this revelation is the gateway to endless possibilities in Christ. What you need when you need it to get to where God wants you is easy compared with the revelation steering you to choose God's way through his unrevealed King. Be yourself as God chose you when you arrived in the wilderness surrounded by a ragtag band. Victories and vindication will be ordinary to you.

The Son Balance (7-15-09)

Abraham was given two promises that appear to be allegorical synonyms. One was his descendants being as the dust and the other as the stars. I see them as a duel revelation. The dust being a numberless lineage of fleshly or earthly descendant and the stars being a spiritual or celestial numberless lineage. The National Israel and the spiritual. The National had the call to ultimately become the spiritual but in rejection of their Messiah ultimately selected the dust promise. Man is a unique creature of flesh and spirit. Therefore Christ had to be of dust and spirit to fill the all in all of these promises. To National Israel He has to be a King reigning upon the earth as the Son of Man. To spiritual Israel He has to be the King of all reigning from a heavenly throne as the Son of God. There is a true balance of both in Christ and why Immanuel is such a fitting name. God with us. Whether of dust or spirit God dwells with us. His final revelation to mankind is the feast of tabernacles which celebrates man dwelling with God. If you will notice in every trial one faces their is the flesh with its complaints and the spirit warring for supremacy. Christ is intimately associated with us and this war. If you read Psalm 22 you see the Son of Man living the faith that will bring the Son of God all He's been promised. Likewise we as Sons of Man must use this faith gift to transition from dust to stars. Being God's eternal habitation is a future promise with a present indicative to our current actions. Abraham in Hebrews is said to have lived looking toward the city whose foundation were laid by God. John Bunyan's pilgrim's entire journey was the same. Dorean was a gift to address the issue of the house of dust and most of the warring is over the dust. But the truth of another dwelling was and is always present in this war. Christ is the King and deliverer of the dust and the stars. Don't let the brightness of your countenance get dusted by the lessor promise. Abraham and Christ were examples to this contrary.

The Good Shepard (7-13-09)

Psalms 23 is a celebrated text quoted in every feel good book, promise box, or even secular literature. It was penned in great hope and a mature experience. Yet I find it no accident it follows Psalm 22. Here is the mind of Christ, and my defense against all my critics. Faith we know sees things that are not as though they are. Faith and prophecy are hand in glove relationally. All prophecy is of the Lord for Christ is the spirit of prophesy. Prophecy liberates while simultaneously restrains. Once the vision of faith sees what will become in the spirit of Christ it restrains the will to choices consistent and yet liberates the spirit from reasonable predictions. It is an easy thing to predict that a powerful government bent on the destruction of Dorean, Scott and Kurt will prevail. Who can resist their machinations? Their system is a well designed meat grinder and once in there is no exit. Prediction is reasonable but it is not faith. Who could argue with the reason of my critics prediction? They are sound. But I have never tried to argue reason only express the vision of faith. Faith is not guided by reason but by Christ. Here in the Psalms is a great example. Christ had the maturity to see Psalms 23 while hanging on the cross of Psalm 22. No reasonable man could predict the cross a victory, only faith saw this. I have shied away from predictions in this trial. They have very reasonable advantage over me. Somethings were obvious to know and others came by surprise but could reasonable be understood in hindsight. What many have failed to understand of Scott and I is that a very mature Christ within us was expressing the peace of Psalm 23 in the midst of our Psalm 22 trial. It is my prayer that this spirit of faith will overtake you so you can experience the Joy of Psalm 23 prophetically with your faith before it appears reasonably. Much has tried to robe me of this joy but just a little praise will bring you back to green pastures and still waters. I don’t predict our ultimate victory Psalms 23 declared it long before Alsup showed up. I see it with faith, a gift Christ has given me. A gift He used Himself on His cross.

Follow The Leader (7-9-09)

I received an order from a judge I have been expecting for many months now. Long since I have determined my tactical choice in addressing it. Even still it had a negative impact on my spirit. I think it was the constant assault of lawless arrogant men and the escalation of battle. What my wife calls her monkey mind bombarded me with thoughts of defeat. They were subtle and non persuasive but hung around like a stench. Under this climate I turned to my example: Christ. In Psalms 22 I imagined the constant ridicule of those who possessed power and presumed victory. He held out in hope of God’s promises. With His spirit under that type of grind He moves to praise. I had to follow His lead. As I praised the Lord my eyes of faith began to see this order as the blessing it was. I already knew this and could make that profession with support of scripture yet my spirit lacked the strength to really own it by faith. Somehow praising fortified my spirit with the knowledge of my advocate and what was a truism in thought moved to an “of course” or that state of “Amen.” There was a sound method to the practice of Christ upon the cross. It is the champions course to victory. A victory paradoxical yet profound. I am following my leader and recommend you do the same.

The Pelican Brief (7-1-09)

Karen Nevis a fine watercolor artist sent me a copy of her Brown Pelicans at harbor. They used to be endangered but are now making a comeback. How defenseless is a pelican? What could it have done to preserve itself or change its decline. It took the mercy of a superior being to preserve it. I wonder why we have become so proud that unlike this pelican we believe we can make that change. Michael Jackson had 50 booked concerts. He was unable to change his circumstance. My faith has been ridiculed but my hope in the mercy of a superior being will net a positive result. I may not be as stupid as a pelican but I hope I can be that wise.

I haven't seen a real pelican in quite some time but Karen's representation is enough to appreciate God's majestic creation. How can one not look at a creature like this and garner hope from the power, mercy and creative intellect that fashioned it. Thank you God and thank you Karen for this brief but important pelican truth. Surely if God can arrange for a pelican comeback a Dorean comeback is surely in the making.

Mr. Big (7-1-09)

I have learned a lesson long ago that a man who magnifies the Lord with praise simultaneously shrinks his problems. There are so many great examples from scripture. Moses, Daniel, the three Hebrews, Deborah, Elijah, David and others. If I had failed in this exercise alone I would find myself in despair overwhelmed by my problems. Yet there is something about seeing the bigness of God that gives you hope. I can dwell endlessly on Alsup and his many vicious weapons but he is very small to God. I know I am not the first to face impossible odds and life threatening trials. How many have gone before me as champions of faith proving God faithful over and over again? I consider it a special joy to be called worthy of this great company of saints. God is still seeking testimonial witness today. Their stories are great and strengthen my faith but God is still alive and working. Testimony must continue and not cease with the dead. Faith is for the living not the dead. Every saint who has been battle tested that I know would not trade their new found wisdom obtained through suffering for comfort. My vote agrees with them. I may have lost my reputation, client’s trust, friends, money, time and other joys but I’ve received a larger measure of Christ. If this is God’s wrath and punishment as my critics contend then I say God’s wrath is sweeter than love. Why can’t God use my little trial as a big show of His glory? Is not my generation entitled to a relevant witness. If not me who? Like that donkey in Shrek “Pick me, Pick me.” Pick me as a testimony to your glory. Pick my Dorean plan to bring truth to the mortgage industry as a model of what you can do with the weak of this world. Repeat your pattern of bringing down the proud and demanding justice. Show your resurrection power can pierce any sealed tomb of man’s making. Rebuke those who claim all hope is lost. Reward all those who trust in you. Be God and let us be your servants. Use us wisely. Cause us to dance the dance of victory on the necks of those who opposed you. Take my name off of Dorean and make it your sovereign gift. Let those who contend with me contend with you. Show the world that Dorean was your origin and not of men. As the womb in kindness delivered your savior to this world deliver Dorean. Show them who Mr. Big is.

Imagination (7-1-09)

First I want to express my faith belief that God always exceeds what I can imagine. Still if I share my imaginations with you this might be helpful to some. Also it might help us to pray accordingly.

I imagine someday that ultimately Alsup will be found lacking jurisdiction. This makes every judgment of his void including the original civil suit. Most of you don’t know that Spielbauer sent in a report to Alsup under seal calling Scott and I criminals. He was not informed on all our business and was being schooled to deal with the foreclosure issues alone. Based on a one sided phone conversation of mine he declared I was lying to clients. All this was given to Alsup without our knowledge in violation of Attorney professional codes. Armed with this Alsup issued that crazy Frances Kenney opinion. No biased can be imagined on his arresting our criminal case from another judge so he could preside over it. (Right!) You can see what I’m up against. A federal judge roars like a lion, sanctions our lawyer and he feeds us to the lions. We do our best to keep any more animal feeders from tampering with our case and go to trial on our own. Most won’t understand how crucial that ultimately was toward our victory. Now we have appeals lawyers trying to steer us to a pack of lions. Yet I imagine two average men with faith will have the faithfulness of God to guide them and the discipline to listen.

The first hurdle is to get the incarceration risk down to manageable. This can be done by my filed habeas which points out that they violated the speedy trial act with the 27 counts of our first indictment that carried over to the superceding indictment. That includes the 20 year conspiracy. If this prevails Scott is sentenced to 20 months and I 5 years. This would put us out to finish the battle from the streets. Another way to deal with this is on appeal raising the merger issue which contaminated the trial and sentence. The appeal most likely will not be ruled upon until late 2010. If they want to take longer they can. The system is trying to force me by waiver to lose many of my prevailing arguments. Under these stealthy attacks I have to be keenly aware. Somehow we haven’t made a fatal error yet. To this thanks belongs to the Lord. Next is to get a reversal with no new trial. The variation of this is a new trial. Then legal maneuvers get harried. They will never let us represent ourselves again and would probably appoint their best animal feeder. The hurdle and evil tactic are no joke. Still I imagine God will make things go better for us than my worst imaginations. He controls the hearts of men including evil men. I can’t imagine how to deal with all this malice but I know Christ can manage it. I imagine ultimate victory with Alsup ensnared by the trap of his own making. I do not imagine this forum being the vehicle for factual truth. Only a means toward that end. God of Isaiah 1 has the same character. I imagine it a good wager to bet on His justice.